In which an important headcanon is revealed
Okay so here's something that's changed since 2013. I figured out that I'm not actually straight. I still have days were I'm a bit??? about things but that's the bottom line of it all. Most days I identify as being aroace, but because this is real life, it's hardly ever that simple. It was hard work for me to work through and I'm very often still terrified by the prospect but I've learnt a lot about myself in the process.
But that's not what I wanted to talk about (I mean it was but it's not the focus so lets move on....)
My big discovery after that was that in my mind, there is no way to interpret Luke Skywalker as anything other than aroace. At least not to me. Because here's the thing about Luke Skywalker - he is the character who resonates with me like no other. He is everything I expect to be in life and we share a number of core personality traits and values and we react very similaly in similar circumstances. And because I feel this so strongly, it makes perfect sense to me that our sexualities are also the same. So in this, Luke has kind of become one of the most important characters ever to me, and I started imagining what it would be lke to be aroace in space and all those fun things. Would they even have the words? If they did how would he react? How would the people around him act? Does he miss the same cues as I do? Does he think the idea that people aren't satisfied with friendship and family utterly bizarre like me? Do people tell him that he's incapable of love and his response is to love harder than ever?
What I'm trying to say is that Luke means a lot to me and I use him as a guinea pig to ask all the hard questions that I'm scared to ask myself and I use that as a reference for myself. A little weird but it works. And I've spent so long figuring this out that now? Yeah, now I'm writing a full self-indulgent fic about it. Gotta work through my feelings somehow!!
But that's not what I wanted to talk about (I mean it was but it's not the focus so lets move on....)
My big discovery after that was that in my mind, there is no way to interpret Luke Skywalker as anything other than aroace. At least not to me. Because here's the thing about Luke Skywalker - he is the character who resonates with me like no other. He is everything I expect to be in life and we share a number of core personality traits and values and we react very similaly in similar circumstances. And because I feel this so strongly, it makes perfect sense to me that our sexualities are also the same. So in this, Luke has kind of become one of the most important characters ever to me, and I started imagining what it would be lke to be aroace in space and all those fun things. Would they even have the words? If they did how would he react? How would the people around him act? Does he miss the same cues as I do? Does he think the idea that people aren't satisfied with friendship and family utterly bizarre like me? Do people tell him that he's incapable of love and his response is to love harder than ever?
What I'm trying to say is that Luke means a lot to me and I use him as a guinea pig to ask all the hard questions that I'm scared to ask myself and I use that as a reference for myself. A little weird but it works. And I've spent so long figuring this out that now? Yeah, now I'm writing a full self-indulgent fic about it. Gotta work through my feelings somehow!!