I don’t want to go to bed and you can’t make me.
I get sad when I find out someone is a racist. Do you? Doesn’t have t be someone I know, could be a stranger. I wonder why. Why do you hate people just because they look different than you?
Remember back when we were friends? We had some fun times, right?
School is over Friday. ASL test Thursday, last assignments for Infant Development Friday. Next term I get to take science, more ASL, and Planning and Teaching for the Preschool Classroom. I have been so empty this past few months that I am not really looking forward to any of those.
I had fun in ASL this year, but it’s still hard and I am still not studying and everyone in class is still younger than me. Like in all my classes. And I hate that and the feelings it churns up.
I decided to go see The Force Awakens, month or so ago. I am looking forward to it, but only so I can find if my Luke Skywalker theory is correct.
Smells like death and dying and it must be killing me.
Comcast is supposed to be here tomorrow to fix my the problem with the lines. Some HD channels don’t come in, On Demand doesn’t always play, and the internet connection no longer works over wi-fi and is unstable with my PS3. Been that way since November 30 and they are just now coming to inspect the issue December 16. I hate Comcast. But my grandfather is a stubborn and out of touch 98 year old man so I can’t switch to ATT.
Really trying hard to write something meaningful, or at least positive, but I can’t help but think,
I hate myself and wish I were dead.
I think it everyday, over and over. It’s just there in my head always no matter what. I do hate myself and I do wish I were dead. Soon, man, soon.
Been trying to play Grand Theft Auto 4. I don’t see the attraction to this series. The controls really ruin any possibility of me seeing past the glamorization of crime and violence. But I don’t want to delete it since I paid 5$ for it. That’s the problem with digital content. Once you buy it, you’re stuck with it. If I buy a physical game or comic or book, I can sell it on eBay if I dislike it. With digital, I’m stuck with it. I can delete it but that feels like such a waste of money.
Which is why I only buy PS3 games when they are on sale and never buy digital comics. If I can’t find it at the library, or a deal on eBay, I don’t read it. With the games, I wait for PSN sales, and if it’s a game I don’t know much about, but it seems interesting, I buy it and tell myself it’s ok if I hate it b/c it is just like renting games from Blockbuster. They charged $6 for a week, so I figure $5 or less for a digital game is an ok move.
I have 43 digital PS3 games. Some were “free” PS Plus subscription games, some were sales. Some b/c I wanted them based on past experience like Marvel vs. Capcom, others on a whim like Terraria. Bought that one 2 years ago and still have yet to play it. I have not played most of the 43. I bought GTA4 a year ago and just started playing it 2 days ago.
Have not seen The Martian or Spectre yet despite really wanting to. I just have no desire to drive to the movie theaters anymore….
But the thing is, you don’t care enough about me to do that anyway.
Remember back when we were friends? We had some fun times, right?
School is over Friday. ASL test Thursday, last assignments for Infant Development Friday. Next term I get to take science, more ASL, and Planning and Teaching for the Preschool Classroom. I have been so empty this past few months that I am not really looking forward to any of those.
I had fun in ASL this year, but it’s still hard and I am still not studying and everyone in class is still younger than me. Like in all my classes. And I hate that and the feelings it churns up.
I decided to go see The Force Awakens, month or so ago. I am looking forward to it, but only so I can find if my Luke Skywalker theory is correct.
Smells like death and dying and it must be killing me.
Comcast is supposed to be here tomorrow to fix my the problem with the lines. Some HD channels don’t come in, On Demand doesn’t always play, and the internet connection no longer works over wi-fi and is unstable with my PS3. Been that way since November 30 and they are just now coming to inspect the issue December 16. I hate Comcast. But my grandfather is a stubborn and out of touch 98 year old man so I can’t switch to ATT.
Really trying hard to write something meaningful, or at least positive, but I can’t help but think,
I hate myself and wish I were dead.
I think it everyday, over and over. It’s just there in my head always no matter what. I do hate myself and I do wish I were dead. Soon, man, soon.
Been trying to play Grand Theft Auto 4. I don’t see the attraction to this series. The controls really ruin any possibility of me seeing past the glamorization of crime and violence. But I don’t want to delete it since I paid 5$ for it. That’s the problem with digital content. Once you buy it, you’re stuck with it. If I buy a physical game or comic or book, I can sell it on eBay if I dislike it. With digital, I’m stuck with it. I can delete it but that feels like such a waste of money.
Which is why I only buy PS3 games when they are on sale and never buy digital comics. If I can’t find it at the library, or a deal on eBay, I don’t read it. With the games, I wait for PSN sales, and if it’s a game I don’t know much about, but it seems interesting, I buy it and tell myself it’s ok if I hate it b/c it is just like renting games from Blockbuster. They charged $6 for a week, so I figure $5 or less for a digital game is an ok move.
I have 43 digital PS3 games. Some were “free” PS Plus subscription games, some were sales. Some b/c I wanted them based on past experience like Marvel vs. Capcom, others on a whim like Terraria. Bought that one 2 years ago and still have yet to play it. I have not played most of the 43. I bought GTA4 a year ago and just started playing it 2 days ago.
Have not seen The Martian or Spectre yet despite really wanting to. I just have no desire to drive to the movie theaters anymore….
But the thing is, you don’t care enough about me to do that anyway.