im sorry... because i know im not suppose to say i miss you
ive dissapointed you so much in the past. how can you look at me and smile? i hate remembering the things we did together cuz than i am forced to remember how i fucked everything up. how are you my friend? even tho you say youve forgiven me, i know that i will never forgive myself for hurting you. things will never change, and i will always be a dissapoinment to those who care. its hard for me to look at you without feeling guilty. i hope you are happy, because you deserve nothing but happiness. i wish i knew how to be your friend and for things to never be complicated between us, but i will never know how to do that and try to accept it. i doubt ill ever learn to be okay. ill never forget that look in your eyes. the peaceful nights or the stars. will you ever forget? i hope you wont.
and i wished on 11:11 that we could be normal.. or something like it
and i wished on 11:11 that we could be normal.. or something like it