love receptale

[moluska]

I am always available to those I love,
if ever you need, I will smother you in unconditional acceptance.
and I will do the best I can. the very best.
I'll lick your wounds like I've been doing it for years
and your pain will wash away, it will become mine;
I'll transmute it and use it to heal you. your own personal alchemist.
I can change for you, give you what you need...
what you desire.
and when you walk away, you will feel recharged and transformed.

they will always walk away.
and I will always be left with a lingering knot in my chest,
a hole in my breast... a sickening feeling of utter
disenchantment
I am your lover. I am forever...

[now give me what I desire, what I need]

and I will continue giving because
...it's what I do best

I wonder if, eventually,
it will be love that destroys me