Rant.
Because nobody reads this anymore, I feel I have full reign to rant at will.
First of all, that is MY fucking library. My tuition pays for the shithole that it is, while your tuition pays for a beautiful ENGINEERING library. It's titled the 'engineering library' because it is for engineers, so what the hell are you doing at the U.G.L. ?
Second, you have always complained non-stop about the shithole that it is, so what in the hell are you doing there?! You hate that it's filled with "greek people." You hate that people dress down; I mean, how DARE they be comfortable while they study. How unheard of. You hate that it's noisy. WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS COMING TO IT?! It would take you just as much time to hop on a bus to Grainger, so FUCKING DO IT.
Third of all, if you're going to have the audacity to show up at the U.G.L., then walk pass me in excess of four times and sit (purposely) directly in my line of view, at least have the decency to say hello. I'm not demanding any more of your precious time. You could say hello while continuing the walk past- Multitasking anyone?! That was nothing short of rude. I've known you for two years, had relations of some sort with you for a year and a half, and that's the kindness I'm allotted?! NOTHING. Well, thanks for just that: Nothing.
There is absolutely no way that you can claim not seeing me. When you look for a table and do four circles past you tend to see who is around you. AND I know you were glancing in my direction. Nobody is that oblivious. We were both in the same area for over two hours. I saw every single person who was around me.
I sincerely applaud your ability to be a big-time asshole, it was truly astounding. Really.
I recall telling you that things would be easier for me if you were an asshole. Didn't you reply that you could never do that to me?? I guess you're adding outrageous lying to the list of your wonderful qualities-bravo.
By the way, I was wrong. I'll admit that much.
It doesn't make things easier for me to get better; just easier for me to regret that I would have given up anything for you.
How can you act like that toward someone who would have given the world to you?
I didn't want to have any regrets. My only regret was losing you; that's quickly changing.
That is the biggest hurt of all.