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[moloch_loveless]

i'm quite confused
what about, i don't know?

i just realized my roommate left me a note she's so cute haha

anyways

i don't know
today in studio i felt so anxious
but not a horribly horrible anxious
a weird anxious
i felt like i was tripping
except with no visiuals
and no mental effects
just dizzy
as if i were on some sort of hallucinogen

then i was just freaking out a litte

i am just so confused
i don't know why
i don't know why

what am i doing?

i just want to be somewhere that isn't anywhere, really

i just want company
in a place
where there is just absolute freedom
somewhere i can breathe without depending on it
somewhere i can understand

though if i did understand what would i do?

i don't think any of this makes any sense

i'm lost...

i need to be found

it's rather hard to find yourself when you don't know where you are in the first place

i don't really think that makes much sense either

i question too much

i question the rationality of my thoughts

i try to bring everything so far down to earth i lose sense of where the ground is

that doesn't make sense either

i need to accept that nothing will ever be right

and become content with it

because plants will always grown
animals will always breathe
music will always have a rhythm
feet will always dance
for as long as we know
and none of it
will ever
make any
sense