kissing is good and I am happy
Hello hello, to day is tuesday althrough it is prrobly wednessday by now... oh well. I have been working and that is fun fun.... not. oh well right. so I don't know any more. I have been thinking which isn't a good thing but if you know me you know that is true.
ok good news I have a boyfriend!!!! I am so .... Happy I didn't think I knew what that feeling was. and speaking of feeling. I forgot how good it feels to be kissing. :) and It is so good. I don't know how to explain it I have only gotton one shall we said make out time so far and I am planing many many more..... I don't know I can't seem to stop smiling and the is wired to me any way. he is really nice and sweet. and he is so smart. and the best thing is I don't get nevers around him I always don and then I sound like a idot and studer and can't talk so I turn red and put my head down. I don't do that with him. Granited I don't have a clue on something but I some how feel like an equal and that is the coolest feeling. it goes right up there with begin held.... begin held is cooler but on the same level it is hard to explain. I don't know .....
last night I went over there to hang out and noleen came with me and that was cool. they have been friends for years and so what ever. anyway we went over and hung out and played pool in his garge and listen to music and talked.... but we couldn't really do anything his parents are home and so that was a bummer. and so we went in his pool and the was cool I took off my pant becase I was wearing a bathing suit from earilier so that was cool and this was at 9 930 at night is it was really pretty.... the water glowing, it was romantic and the best part it was the naturanl kind and he tried to explain the contolastions but I just laugh and told him to save his breath.... I told him I was a lost cause on that one. lol .... oh well so then got dryed off and went to (where eles do I go )..... did you guess .... yep that is right the Beach!!!! we are at this nice clean pool and we got to the beach. and so we walked a little of it and then we went in.... That is right in I found someone to go into the beach with me at night how cool is that. and we went up to are wastes (hips ) it was soooo nice and cold and man it was ..... I can't ever think of the words and no not carzy ... lol
well guys you well get to meet him in a couple of hours. and I know you will like him. I cann't wait. I do know one thing that we are going to take this very slow.... I don't know where it may or may not lead and so slow is the only was to go. I am as you say testing my round and so is he I think or so I hope. I am not going to jump it to the I love you stage of the game and the two main reasons are I still don't belive it exits in this life.. and I don't have anyreson it rush into something if and that is a big if thing progress then it shall be done in a slow pace... I have all the time in the world and so dose he I can't wait to see you trommow.... and beside untill that point when it come down to it I am just going to enjoy the kissing and began held without feeling bad about it and not haveing to ask, did I mention the Kissing is great....!!!! I need too sleep know he is going to call in five six hours so I bid you good night and sweet dreams or night mares your choice as for me I am going it to clear land for once