Fluid
In relationship to people and the world around me, I feel very fluid right now.
It's odd, looking at people's facebook pictures or wishing people a happy birthday-- people who I've hardly talked to in months. Or to see old friends communicating still, people I haven't talked to in so long. Or even my own family, with a new baby I haven't seen. I feel as though I'm moving rapidly through the world, a world of solid things or hardly changing things.
I could be JYA or back at Smith. I could be visiting friends back on the East Coast. I could have spent my summer at home, with my family, spending time with my nephews and niece. I could still be dating the same person.
I'm happy to be fluid. I'm happy to be without a permanent home. I'm happy to be living with so few things. I'm happy to feel like Aaron's the only thing I'm really hanging on to. I'm happy to be planning my life around myself rather than what others want.
And for an update: I finished about 8 months in Louisiana (Lake Charles, Baton Rouge and New Orleans), doing needs assesments for the first two or so and then working with Habitat for Humanity for the other four. I had a week break, when my boyfriend, Aaron, planned a trip to national parks. We ended up going to five national parks, five state parks and two national forests and the Four Corners monument-- we were all over Utah, New Mexico and Colorado. I'm now heading out to Michigan to work at YMCA camp for the rest of my time in AmeriCorps. I'll be done in November.
These people drive me crazy-- my teammates I mean. But I also love them to death and really trust them. Aaron's on my team too and he's a really amazing person. I feel incredibly lucky to have him in my life. He's the kind of guy who wakes up in the middle of the night cold and puts the blankets on you because he imagines you're cold too. He has compassion for everyone, which always amazes me and he's a very moral person and sticks strongly by his beliefs. I feel like I'm always learning from him and admiring him.
In the future? I'm probably going to go to Penn State and get an apartment and live with Aaron. I don't really want to go back to school, because I don't really know what I want to do. I'm hoping I'll get a better idea in the next few months.
That is all I suppose.
It's odd, looking at people's facebook pictures or wishing people a happy birthday-- people who I've hardly talked to in months. Or to see old friends communicating still, people I haven't talked to in so long. Or even my own family, with a new baby I haven't seen. I feel as though I'm moving rapidly through the world, a world of solid things or hardly changing things.
I could be JYA or back at Smith. I could be visiting friends back on the East Coast. I could have spent my summer at home, with my family, spending time with my nephews and niece. I could still be dating the same person.
I'm happy to be fluid. I'm happy to be without a permanent home. I'm happy to be living with so few things. I'm happy to feel like Aaron's the only thing I'm really hanging on to. I'm happy to be planning my life around myself rather than what others want.
And for an update: I finished about 8 months in Louisiana (Lake Charles, Baton Rouge and New Orleans), doing needs assesments for the first two or so and then working with Habitat for Humanity for the other four. I had a week break, when my boyfriend, Aaron, planned a trip to national parks. We ended up going to five national parks, five state parks and two national forests and the Four Corners monument-- we were all over Utah, New Mexico and Colorado. I'm now heading out to Michigan to work at YMCA camp for the rest of my time in AmeriCorps. I'll be done in November.
These people drive me crazy-- my teammates I mean. But I also love them to death and really trust them. Aaron's on my team too and he's a really amazing person. I feel incredibly lucky to have him in my life. He's the kind of guy who wakes up in the middle of the night cold and puts the blankets on you because he imagines you're cold too. He has compassion for everyone, which always amazes me and he's a very moral person and sticks strongly by his beliefs. I feel like I'm always learning from him and admiring him.
In the future? I'm probably going to go to Penn State and get an apartment and live with Aaron. I don't really want to go back to school, because I don't really know what I want to do. I'm hoping I'll get a better idea in the next few months.
That is all I suppose.