A dream.

[mollyislykradx0]

I dreamt last night I had been at the beach for quite some time. Virtually all day. Just sitting in the sand in a white cotton dress. It was such a peaceful feeling, the wind blowing through my hair. I could taste the salt water on my tongue from the water, just from closing my eyes. It was a subtle taste. Everything felt so weightless. So weightless in such a wonderful way. Each breath I took was deep, and it didn't feel like such a hassle. And the sky was bright blue, with barely any clouds. And yet the sun wasn't shining brightly. It was not too chilly, but not too warm. Everything was perfect. So I sat there in silence, listening to the sounds of the waves crashing upon the shore. And suddenly, the silence was broken with the screaming of children. Two of them, a boy and girl, running around, playing tag. I then look around. I see sand castles. Little five year old footsteps in the sand. Sand toys. Shovels. I realize these children are mine, because we are there alone. And somehow I knew there names. I don't remember what they were, but I knew it at the time. I pick one at a time up and raise them in the air and spin as fast as I can. And I fall to the ground on the bare sand with one in my embrace and I just laugh and laugh and laugh until my sides hurt. And I swear I could feel it in my sleep. I hear someone yell my name. I turn around..and he's walking toward me. He has car keys in his hand and a towel. He said, "Here, can't believe I left this last one in the car." He puts the towel down and sits next to me. I look dumbfounded and confused. He asks if I'm alright and I say "Yes." One of the kids yells, "Mommy! Daddy! Look! I built a moat!", and points to the sand. Mommy...? Daddy...? I am subconciously thinking. All of a sudden the waves start crashing more. Louder. Louder. More intense. They become so loud I can't even hear what he is saying anymore. Just his mouth moving. The children are playing still. And he is laughing.  The sound of the waves become so intense I cannot bare it.

Then, I wake up.  Somewhat scary. But for some reason...I feel assured.
This is what I've been wondering all along.
Is this the future?
Is this an aspiration?
Is this how it may be?

I sincerely hope.