sunrise, sunset.
This post is really all Olivia's fault.
silly girl.
I guess what I'm thinking of is time. every day i take a little bit of it to recognize how much i love the place where i am. High school has been nothing but good for me, and i dread and fear change. I realize that i only have two years left of this sheltered world where everything is provided for me. I'm afraid of college and i openly admit it. But more importantly, i hate time. Everyday the clock mocks me, telling me that i need to continue or i will be a failure. Well, if only the clock could listen, I'd ask it why it was so important. If i make a conscious decision not to keep moving, can i really be a failure? in my opinion, as long as someone is doing what they want they can't be wrong.
But in another sense i do want to go on, to move to the next chapter of my life. I think of it as a sunrise sunset scenario. i love the sunrise. theres nothing as beautiful as waking up and realize that life has started anew, and theres another day to live and create happiness. And the sun, the beautiful sun, brilliant and shining, so amazing that you cant help but smile. i think of each sunrise and each day as a chapter in my life that i love, that I'm really attached to. I don't want it to end, but faithfully after each sunrise comes a sunset. And thats when i realize- that dreaded sunset was necessary. it was needed so much and i couldn't even realize it. if that sun hadn't gone down, then i suppose it would have a hard time coming up in the morning. and no matter what, i love each day the same.
silly girl.
I guess what I'm thinking of is time. every day i take a little bit of it to recognize how much i love the place where i am. High school has been nothing but good for me, and i dread and fear change. I realize that i only have two years left of this sheltered world where everything is provided for me. I'm afraid of college and i openly admit it. But more importantly, i hate time. Everyday the clock mocks me, telling me that i need to continue or i will be a failure. Well, if only the clock could listen, I'd ask it why it was so important. If i make a conscious decision not to keep moving, can i really be a failure? in my opinion, as long as someone is doing what they want they can't be wrong.
But in another sense i do want to go on, to move to the next chapter of my life. I think of it as a sunrise sunset scenario. i love the sunrise. theres nothing as beautiful as waking up and realize that life has started anew, and theres another day to live and create happiness. And the sun, the beautiful sun, brilliant and shining, so amazing that you cant help but smile. i think of each sunrise and each day as a chapter in my life that i love, that I'm really attached to. I don't want it to end, but faithfully after each sunrise comes a sunset. And thats when i realize- that dreaded sunset was necessary. it was needed so much and i couldn't even realize it. if that sun hadn't gone down, then i suppose it would have a hard time coming up in the morning. and no matter what, i love each day the same.