update I think, we'll see how far I get
It's around 12:30am and I'm on my stepdad's computer in his office aka my bedroom for a few weeks and felt like updating.
Went to England/Ireland on the 14th till the 23rd definitely a trip to remember. I am soo happy I got the opportunity to go over there. Too much to write in here about it but if you want to know details ask me and I'll tell ya. Ireland is simply amazing though.
Got back to the states on the 23rd and my sister picked me up from the airport, spent the night there and drove home for christmas with her and my brother in law. Had Christmas eve dinner with my dad and did the whole family thing over there than went to Midnight mass let me tell you I was fucking struggling there. Came home couldn't sleep cuz I was all fucked up so I stayed up till 4 am wrapping gifts for people.
Christmas Came and went it was really nice though. We did our traditional christmas morning things waking up early for gifts, making breakfast, playing with gifts etc.. I took a short nap because I was dying then proceeded to cook with my mom all afternoon, it was soo much fun I'm really becoming domesticated but I love it. Family came over and stayed till around midnight that night. Got pretty drunk actually, they just kept giving me wine. I wasn't complaining.
This week I don't have to many plans except tomorrow I'm heading up to Rome with the family to see some family friends then friday having the Fioravanti women over for a girls night kinda :). Then off to Colin's for New years, that should rock. I'll be home for another week after that which will consist of making sure I have everything in order to move and hanging out with people before I head back to potsdam. Which will be on that saturday. Also I have my Income tax course that week which will make me certified by the IRS to do Income taxes , cool shit.
Things have moved along alot faster than I expected with the moving out process because of my grandmother getting sicker. I definitely would rather have her in a bedroom so It is fine but I expected to have a couple more weeks to be out of my bedroom instead I came home from Europe and found my shit out in the hallway. Working on only a couple hours of sleep I did not handle that well , I feel bad about it now but come on now that's pretty ridiculous. I've been packing all my shit for school in suitcases and than putting stuff that I wasn't bringing to school in big bins and storing it down stairs. My bed is the fouton for a while now while my little sister gets to sleep in my room, she's being a cunt about it though. I wouldn't mind as much if she wasn't throwing it in my face constantly. Anyways sorry for the rant.
Other than that things are great, time is flying by.
My mom and I were talking tonight about how this year was really a productive year and if I think about it, It was my most productive year yet. Started off great right on New Years last year with Ryan, went into the Spring semester last year which sucked academically but was great socially. I made the decision to lose weight and stuck to it, The Summer came and went and I did a lot of great things - Rehoboth Beach with the Hunts, Cape Cod with my family, 3 DMB Concerts, Visited Colin a lot, Took two classes and did well in them, Worked and made money, and continued to lose weight. Summer turned into fall and I went to FMCC instead of Potsdam. I had to say goodbye to some of my best friends and the first few weeks sucked but eventually everything started to work out. I Joined alot of clubs and became very involved on and off campus with organizations. Did really well in classes - ended up with a 3.7 overall-, went up to Potsdam once a month, made some nice friends, continued to lose weight, got closer with my family. Classes ended and that day I left for Europe met up with Colin and Jenny and had a blast and made a lot of memories. I'm happy this year is coming to a close and I can look back on it very fondly. Hopefully next year will be just as good, it should be I have alot of exciting things lined up : New Apartment with Col, Back in Potsdam, Great friends up there, Working on losing a little more weight and keeping it off, joining the swim team hopefully, trying to become Pres of SAI, etc.. So Here's to a great 2005 and hopefully a productive and fun 2006
There is only really one thing missing from that whole equation of greatness for the year of 2005, and not to be gay but that's love. Seriously ( and I'm ok with this ) I really just don't think I"m cut out for it. I was always looking for it in the wrong places all that unrequited shit and I think I tried so hard then that I'm just worn out from it or something. I mean people come around but I just don't let anyone in really. I don't mind being single I don't have to worry about all that relationship crap, but at the same exact time I'm a huge romantic in every since of the word and it gets pretty lonely. I guess I just get scared I'll never find someone who loves me as much as I love them , or I will never love someone back as much as they love me. I just want it to be comfortable, I don't want to have all the awkwardness of dating someone new which I guess is why I never let anyone in. I want it to be natural and easy. I have this whole idea of how I want life to be and I just want someone to fit into I guess. I know that's alot to ask and I'm sure when I find the right person I'll work for it. It's funny though sometimes I feel like the right person is right under my nose but just isn't coming out or there are circumstances which don't allow it. eh, enough of this crap just the ramblings of a tired girl.
WOW long ass updated sorry, if anyone actually made it thru this congrats, I owe you a drink because you'll sure need it
off to bed, I hope everyone has a great new years, I probably won't update till after then again and I can't wait to see you all in Potsdam this semester :) Later
Went to England/Ireland on the 14th till the 23rd definitely a trip to remember. I am soo happy I got the opportunity to go over there. Too much to write in here about it but if you want to know details ask me and I'll tell ya. Ireland is simply amazing though.
Got back to the states on the 23rd and my sister picked me up from the airport, spent the night there and drove home for christmas with her and my brother in law. Had Christmas eve dinner with my dad and did the whole family thing over there than went to Midnight mass let me tell you I was fucking struggling there. Came home couldn't sleep cuz I was all fucked up so I stayed up till 4 am wrapping gifts for people.
Christmas Came and went it was really nice though. We did our traditional christmas morning things waking up early for gifts, making breakfast, playing with gifts etc.. I took a short nap because I was dying then proceeded to cook with my mom all afternoon, it was soo much fun I'm really becoming domesticated but I love it. Family came over and stayed till around midnight that night. Got pretty drunk actually, they just kept giving me wine. I wasn't complaining.
This week I don't have to many plans except tomorrow I'm heading up to Rome with the family to see some family friends then friday having the Fioravanti women over for a girls night kinda :). Then off to Colin's for New years, that should rock. I'll be home for another week after that which will consist of making sure I have everything in order to move and hanging out with people before I head back to potsdam. Which will be on that saturday. Also I have my Income tax course that week which will make me certified by the IRS to do Income taxes , cool shit.
Things have moved along alot faster than I expected with the moving out process because of my grandmother getting sicker. I definitely would rather have her in a bedroom so It is fine but I expected to have a couple more weeks to be out of my bedroom instead I came home from Europe and found my shit out in the hallway. Working on only a couple hours of sleep I did not handle that well , I feel bad about it now but come on now that's pretty ridiculous. I've been packing all my shit for school in suitcases and than putting stuff that I wasn't bringing to school in big bins and storing it down stairs. My bed is the fouton for a while now while my little sister gets to sleep in my room, she's being a cunt about it though. I wouldn't mind as much if she wasn't throwing it in my face constantly. Anyways sorry for the rant.
Other than that things are great, time is flying by.
My mom and I were talking tonight about how this year was really a productive year and if I think about it, It was my most productive year yet. Started off great right on New Years last year with Ryan, went into the Spring semester last year which sucked academically but was great socially. I made the decision to lose weight and stuck to it, The Summer came and went and I did a lot of great things - Rehoboth Beach with the Hunts, Cape Cod with my family, 3 DMB Concerts, Visited Colin a lot, Took two classes and did well in them, Worked and made money, and continued to lose weight. Summer turned into fall and I went to FMCC instead of Potsdam. I had to say goodbye to some of my best friends and the first few weeks sucked but eventually everything started to work out. I Joined alot of clubs and became very involved on and off campus with organizations. Did really well in classes - ended up with a 3.7 overall-, went up to Potsdam once a month, made some nice friends, continued to lose weight, got closer with my family. Classes ended and that day I left for Europe met up with Colin and Jenny and had a blast and made a lot of memories. I'm happy this year is coming to a close and I can look back on it very fondly. Hopefully next year will be just as good, it should be I have alot of exciting things lined up : New Apartment with Col, Back in Potsdam, Great friends up there, Working on losing a little more weight and keeping it off, joining the swim team hopefully, trying to become Pres of SAI, etc.. So Here's to a great 2005 and hopefully a productive and fun 2006
There is only really one thing missing from that whole equation of greatness for the year of 2005, and not to be gay but that's love. Seriously ( and I'm ok with this ) I really just don't think I"m cut out for it. I was always looking for it in the wrong places all that unrequited shit and I think I tried so hard then that I'm just worn out from it or something. I mean people come around but I just don't let anyone in really. I don't mind being single I don't have to worry about all that relationship crap, but at the same exact time I'm a huge romantic in every since of the word and it gets pretty lonely. I guess I just get scared I'll never find someone who loves me as much as I love them , or I will never love someone back as much as they love me. I just want it to be comfortable, I don't want to have all the awkwardness of dating someone new which I guess is why I never let anyone in. I want it to be natural and easy. I have this whole idea of how I want life to be and I just want someone to fit into I guess. I know that's alot to ask and I'm sure when I find the right person I'll work for it. It's funny though sometimes I feel like the right person is right under my nose but just isn't coming out or there are circumstances which don't allow it. eh, enough of this crap just the ramblings of a tired girl.
WOW long ass updated sorry, if anyone actually made it thru this congrats, I owe you a drink because you'll sure need it
off to bed, I hope everyone has a great new years, I probably won't update till after then again and I can't wait to see you all in Potsdam this semester :) Later