A modification of something old
So.... A few days ago now I woke up miserable as sin because of a series of events which once again shot down my faith that people will stand by their word and not blow you off when a better deal flies their way (per usual), but then this afternoon, something Randy told me while we were in Costa Rica came to my mind. He told me that once you realize you cannot force anyone to do anything in life, or really expect anyone to do anything at all, you can be content because you will never be let down by people. In my mind, this makes at least a nanacome of sense....if you do not expect anything from people, then you will never be disappointed, but at the same time, you will always be surprised and happy when someone does something for you, or actually does what they say they will do. In the back my mind, I know this is a rather pesimistic attitude, but in all reality, it makes a good deal of sense. I think it is the answer I've been looking for. A way to stop myself from becoming depressed every time someone gets my hopes up and then lets me down because they decide to jump ship at the last second. I think this will become my new philosophy on life.
Break should be mildly interesting...it actually coincides with Easter this year, which is wonderful because my cousin Connor is coming up from Maryland and we NEVER see him anymore, so I am absolutely thrilled that he decided to come home. Also, I'm satisfying the demands of my overbearing little sister because Becky and I are trucking down to Bona's on Sunday to visit her. That works out well because I can stay in Rochester Sunday night and observe with that high school bio teacher Becky knows on Monday. All of that, of course, has to be aligned with the family St. Patrick's Day party which has been put on hold in honor of my arrival...lol, funny....yeah for lots of soda bread and Bailey's Irish Cream...I love beening Irish, can ya tell?
It makes me a little sad to think that this will be the last time I drive home before graduation, but I am trying not to dwell on that.....it will come none the less, so what's the point....
Anyways, I have to torture myself in calc class in an hour, so I best beon my way...