Whats the fucking point?
I suck. I'm not good at anything. I'm a crap rider and I screwed up and I hate myself for it. "Don't be so hard on yourself." Screw that. If I'm not hard on me, who will be? I screwed up. I FUCKED UP. HOW COULD I BLOW THAT? I knew that test better than anyone, and I fucked it all up. Fuck. I have wasted 12 years of my life on something I suck at. Well, I want to quit. I don't care anymore. Its a waste of my pointless time. I hate me. So, maybe its just another excuse to hate myself, but I do. Whatever. I can't believe it. I fucked it up. Well, at least I don't have to go to Championships anymore. Because Nora can go and they drop the lowest score anyway and that would be mine, so its a waste of time and money. Fuck. I blew it.