wow.....
I have decided to go back to Israel. I'm not sure exactly why, but I know I really should go back and i guess now is the time for me to do it. I ran away from it way to long and thats not cool. So here is my tentative plan for then next year. I'll go to Maine and work and then ship all my stuff from Boston back to Anchorage and live there till Jan. I'll work my ass off and save money, and then when the winter Mechinah (prep. program for Hebrew University) Program starts i'll head over.
really i'm excited for it, i'll get to be with family and friends whom i haven't seen in a while. I'll relearn the culture that i've nearly forgot. Be able to be active with Israeli government like i've wanted to and so many other things.
so my last entry i talk about a guy who i love....and i still do. But i can't be with him. I began to feel like i was forcing him to be with me, and thats not a kind of person i am. I don't want to force him into a relationship he doesn't want to be in (regardless if i love him or not) and also he was letting me force myself be in a situation with him that i don't want. I don't want him to treat me like my own father treats his girlfriends. and honostly our relationship wasn't going to go anywhere.
so i'll always love him, and i'll forever wish things between us would have worked out.
such is life..................................................
really i'm excited for it, i'll get to be with family and friends whom i haven't seen in a while. I'll relearn the culture that i've nearly forgot. Be able to be active with Israeli government like i've wanted to and so many other things.
so my last entry i talk about a guy who i love....and i still do. But i can't be with him. I began to feel like i was forcing him to be with me, and thats not a kind of person i am. I don't want to force him into a relationship he doesn't want to be in (regardless if i love him or not) and also he was letting me force myself be in a situation with him that i don't want. I don't want him to treat me like my own father treats his girlfriends. and honostly our relationship wasn't going to go anywhere.
so i'll always love him, and i'll forever wish things between us would have worked out.
such is life..................................................