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I set down the can at the same time she did. But she's got longer hair of a different color. And she's drinking root beer. I try to remain interested, but she's boring me. Words of family, of law, of new ethics. A discussion for her point of view. Some small talk to my left, what building are you in? what floor? response - 51. oh, i bet you have a nice view there. yes. to me it's like being in my ski chalet. look up and there's the sky. moving on to a couple minutes later. it's hard to keep a straight face. i'm excited about life. and about these people flipping through a handout (we'll call him bill in our hypothetical) learning. or trying. or helping. or declining. what about all this quick talk. what about the way the life goes by. does it seem easy.
the other day: saying outloud. i like having friends who are substantially older than me. reminds me what the purpose of all this is. life. meant. living. so i say to a law student who asks me (and what are you going to do with this education) i'm not worrying about that right now. i have things i'd like to do, and won't pick a time when they should happen until it's time. and then, one step at a time even if it's in the wrong order. i will travel. i will talk and listen. no doubt that all of this will get used. he, jaw dropped, smiles. she, who had already told me, i was like her, says that i am quite aware of life for my age. i in turn got uncomfortable, stood up, and went back to the camera. but i smiled. and at the end, stepped in and made another point. quite a priviledged position.
it's not that i'm backwards planning or not knowing where to turn, but more like chronological plans fail me. time line. yeah, don't have one. as far as i'm concerned, don't need one. haven't used it yet. before long, i'll be talking about what happened today. but not for a while.
can't wait.
up on deck. one part party six parts uw library probably four parts paper writing and three parts relaxing. basically done with finals. first time ever that spring break comes before the official date. and in a month, i can enter a bar, formally. lots of hours this week. more than the rest of the quarter. at work. drinking tea and being sassy. one of the higher ups needs more people to respond to him with sass. definitely asks for it. but i consider him a good guy and people just take him too seriously because he's the super boss. but whatever. i'm young. i can do things like be a sassmachine and no one will question that.
so, i'm super excited about my thesis. the most interesting thing i've ever involved myself in. it's a good feeling. and i like classes where i can do it like i feel it. do what i want. and next quarter i get to take philosophy too again. Gadamer! i will enjoy my philosophy minor.
other than what's been said, things are easy to roll through. sometimes hard and never easy, but not so awful. enjoying life is not a task or a challenge. at least, it should not be.
the other day: saying outloud. i like having friends who are substantially older than me. reminds me what the purpose of all this is. life. meant. living. so i say to a law student who asks me (and what are you going to do with this education) i'm not worrying about that right now. i have things i'd like to do, and won't pick a time when they should happen until it's time. and then, one step at a time even if it's in the wrong order. i will travel. i will talk and listen. no doubt that all of this will get used. he, jaw dropped, smiles. she, who had already told me, i was like her, says that i am quite aware of life for my age. i in turn got uncomfortable, stood up, and went back to the camera. but i smiled. and at the end, stepped in and made another point. quite a priviledged position.
it's not that i'm backwards planning or not knowing where to turn, but more like chronological plans fail me. time line. yeah, don't have one. as far as i'm concerned, don't need one. haven't used it yet. before long, i'll be talking about what happened today. but not for a while.
can't wait.
up on deck. one part party six parts uw library probably four parts paper writing and three parts relaxing. basically done with finals. first time ever that spring break comes before the official date. and in a month, i can enter a bar, formally. lots of hours this week. more than the rest of the quarter. at work. drinking tea and being sassy. one of the higher ups needs more people to respond to him with sass. definitely asks for it. but i consider him a good guy and people just take him too seriously because he's the super boss. but whatever. i'm young. i can do things like be a sassmachine and no one will question that.
so, i'm super excited about my thesis. the most interesting thing i've ever involved myself in. it's a good feeling. and i like classes where i can do it like i feel it. do what i want. and next quarter i get to take philosophy too again. Gadamer! i will enjoy my philosophy minor.
other than what's been said, things are easy to roll through. sometimes hard and never easy, but not so awful. enjoying life is not a task or a challenge. at least, it should not be.