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today is one of the days when i woke up and realized i have completely lost touch with reality and a sense of my personal being. when is it okay to go out in public the way that i did? and of all days, it's Easter.
anyways, fuck, my mind is in a scramble. i'm having issues. i'm turning into a nutcase. i'm just a constant spew of rdiculous, assinine remarks and that's it. i cared once about being attractive to the opposite sex. that's impossible at this point. and i don't care. and when i do try and be cute, the grossest thing happens. i get this weird tone in my voice, and i say, "YEAH!! Totally!!" a lot. it's a twilight zone. and the obsession with the clothes and the accessories has gotten out of hand. i mean, look at me. i'm talking about CLOTHES AND ACCESSORIES for crying out loud. but i guess that stuff paid off because i've had several people recently comment me on my style.
anyways, i just feel like i've reached a new level of absurdity and i can't control it. it's like if someone doesn't stop me or distract me, it's only going to get worse and worse. i have to distract myself which means photo show which means getting together a concept, an idea, i had an idea but i've got to work around it an invitations and music and juggling with whether or not people will really buy my photography and drinks and an after party and drinks for that. this has got to be simpler. which means stress. which means no going out for a month. i'm serious.
i have to go strategize now.
anyways, fuck, my mind is in a scramble. i'm having issues. i'm turning into a nutcase. i'm just a constant spew of rdiculous, assinine remarks and that's it. i cared once about being attractive to the opposite sex. that's impossible at this point. and i don't care. and when i do try and be cute, the grossest thing happens. i get this weird tone in my voice, and i say, "YEAH!! Totally!!" a lot. it's a twilight zone. and the obsession with the clothes and the accessories has gotten out of hand. i mean, look at me. i'm talking about CLOTHES AND ACCESSORIES for crying out loud. but i guess that stuff paid off because i've had several people recently comment me on my style.
anyways, i just feel like i've reached a new level of absurdity and i can't control it. it's like if someone doesn't stop me or distract me, it's only going to get worse and worse. i have to distract myself which means photo show which means getting together a concept, an idea, i had an idea but i've got to work around it an invitations and music and juggling with whether or not people will really buy my photography and drinks and an after party and drinks for that. this has got to be simpler. which means stress. which means no going out for a month. i'm serious.
i have to go strategize now.