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hmm..kinda wanting to die right now.
me: im proud of myself, through everything yesterday, i managed to not call you!!!
adam: Why is that something to be proud of?
me: becuase i didnt want to hassle you or whatever...
adam: It wouldn't have been a hassle... if any of my friends ever need to talk, I'll talk with them. and your one of my friends, Amy.
me: im sorry?
adam: It's ok... I'd rather you call me than hurt urself.
so, do i hurt myself, or do i call and interupt his game? or do i just IM him and interupt his game? i feel bad interupting him, so, i'll prolly just cut and shit tonight.i dont know. i feel bad cutting and hurting myself because i know it hurts adam and josh and i dont want to do that to them. but i also dont want to call anyone just because i want to cut. and i mean, yeah, i WANT to die, but i doubt ill attempt it right now. so, i dont know. i just...i dont know what to do..
me: im proud of myself, through everything yesterday, i managed to not call you!!!
adam: Why is that something to be proud of?
me: becuase i didnt want to hassle you or whatever...
adam: It wouldn't have been a hassle... if any of my friends ever need to talk, I'll talk with them. and your one of my friends, Amy.
me: im sorry?
adam: It's ok... I'd rather you call me than hurt urself.
so, do i hurt myself, or do i call and interupt his game? or do i just IM him and interupt his game? i feel bad interupting him, so, i'll prolly just cut and shit tonight.i dont know. i feel bad cutting and hurting myself because i know it hurts adam and josh and i dont want to do that to them. but i also dont want to call anyone just because i want to cut. and i mean, yeah, i WANT to die, but i doubt ill attempt it right now. so, i dont know. i just...i dont know what to do..