Living in the past
Tumlutuous times are at hand it seems. I've never felt more stable in my life myself, but everything around me seems to be crumbling. I stand strong, and everything shifts in the wind. I know exactly what I want, and how I want things to pan out. Seems great right?
Life is never that easy. My best friend disagrees with practically everything that I want. That in itself is pretty difficult to swallow, but it gets worse. He's afraid of losing my friendship and losing attention from me. It's true, my future will involve less time for me to distribute, as there will be more things playing a role and consuming me as a resource. But I will never sever ties. The only thing pushing us apart right now is the fear of that itself. That fear has caused many feelings of resentment and discontent for others - feelings which have caused those others hurt and pain. Feelings are only feelings, but they can still prick the skin. Sadly I feel that there is not much concern, and that it may even become intent. People are hurt, and there's nothing I can do.
The past is gone and over. I've put everything in it behind me, not to forget, but to get over it. I wish others would do the same. I've done some pretty stupid things in the past. I've hurt people. I've been hurt. But that's gone now. To anyone I've hurt before, I'm sorry, and to anyone who has hurt me, I forgive you.
What matters now is the present, the here and now. I've got my path decided, and you can either stand beside me or leave me to my lonesome. This is what I want to do, and it is what I'm doing.
I love Christine and I love my best friend. Nothing will ever change that.
Support is more than holding one's tongue.
-Mok
Life is never that easy. My best friend disagrees with practically everything that I want. That in itself is pretty difficult to swallow, but it gets worse. He's afraid of losing my friendship and losing attention from me. It's true, my future will involve less time for me to distribute, as there will be more things playing a role and consuming me as a resource. But I will never sever ties. The only thing pushing us apart right now is the fear of that itself. That fear has caused many feelings of resentment and discontent for others - feelings which have caused those others hurt and pain. Feelings are only feelings, but they can still prick the skin. Sadly I feel that there is not much concern, and that it may even become intent. People are hurt, and there's nothing I can do.
The past is gone and over. I've put everything in it behind me, not to forget, but to get over it. I wish others would do the same. I've done some pretty stupid things in the past. I've hurt people. I've been hurt. But that's gone now. To anyone I've hurt before, I'm sorry, and to anyone who has hurt me, I forgive you.
What matters now is the present, the here and now. I've got my path decided, and you can either stand beside me or leave me to my lonesome. This is what I want to do, and it is what I'm doing.
I love Christine and I love my best friend. Nothing will ever change that.
Support is more than holding one's tongue.
-Mok