Well damn I bet you weren't expecting this...
well well well, its been a year and several months since i wrote in this thing. its amazing how it is still here after all this time.
Oh well better get started on what i came to do and be done with this.
alright listen up because im only going to say this once. if you don't have a polite and decent opinion about what i say then keep it yourself i have enough to deal with as is.
anyways
as some of you may or may not know i have changed religions. Im now following the Wiccan faith. Basically Im a witch. For once i have found something that makes 30 times more sense then the christian religion. I have been able to find myself and little more.even though i follow this path i still believe in god (and dont tell me its not possible because the wiccan faith is multi-religious) Without a doubt this is something i want to follow. those of you that are already forming the opinion or statment that "its evil" or "its satanism" then let me be the first to tell you to pull your head out of your ass. Mean comment? maybe. Do i care? yes. will you continue to believe what you want. you can, just dont try to change me. If you havent read anything on my religion that's fine and dandy, knock it all you want, just keep it yourself when your around me. I dont make fun your religion so i expect the same in return, if not then oh well i guess that will be one less person i have to deal with. Please take no offense to it. Im not going to cast spells or what not on you to harm you, Im just informing you my change. which i feel is a BIG step for me, as well as a big change. I have never been so sure of this in my life. so please accept it for what it is or dont accept it and just dont knock it around me.
second order of business is aimed directly to chris harris (yeah buddy you gettin called out again) You seem to have a big problem with what i think. You mentioned earlier before you cowardly signed off that i couldn't sit here and tell you about people questioning your judgement. that im starting to act like you did when you were with april. well let me get something straight with you young padawan. Your situation with april is nothing compared to my moving situation. I have confronted my brother about what you told me and he said that all he told you was that mom wanted me out, chris has no beef with me. so if this true then why do you feel that you have to make things more difficult then what they are. You of all people know about this move, hell you were the first person to know about it. april nearly killed you, i didnt....so again tell me how that dictates me acting like you? since you really never explained that... ANYWAYS. If you have a problem with me working so much and being tired, wanting to rest then thats fine and dandy, but sit there and tell me that im Alienating my friends? BAH! as many times as you have had clients and business meeting and other "FUN" filled stuff not once have i complained about hanging out or anything else. let me tell you something my so called friend, I miss you and everyone else alot. But i have fucking priorities to deal with and i dont have time to listen you bitch and moan about how you dont see me anymore. Im not so why should you? you will see me when you see me. No need to force it...IF ANYTHING you should be happy about this change. I have changed, but i have changed to the point where Im so stranger that you see from time to time. like i said i have priorties to take care of. now once i get those taken care of then we can hang out and all that good stuff, but dont ever in your fucking life again tell me that im alienating my friends...because if anything, im not alienating anyone but you....PERIOD!!! besides, if you were that concerned about not seeing me or talking to me, you know my phone number, you know my email address, and you know my screenname, you know how to IM me and talk to me LIKE YOU USED TO! but do you do it? NOPE? why? several reasons, but i'll let you pick one and you can stick with it. Im sorry that i have lay all this out on you, but i already had a shitty day as it is, and im already dealing with a CLOSE FRIEND CONFRENTATION AT THE MOMENT and you just made shit worse for me. so do me a favor and KNOCK IT OFF!!!
Now If you have a problem then i expect you to tell me about it, and be done with it. No making so called intellegent-smartass remarks and then signing off because you don't want to deal with what lies afterwords. trust me, if you do that, its only going to piss me off even more and then you end getting something like this later.
so, in closeing, either talk to me like a GROWN person or leave me the hell alone, i have enough to deal with as it is with beth and the newly found engagement with hugo and i dont feel like cutting people off because it seems that im lossing people in exchange for the peaceful and tranquil happiness that i have come to like. so pick a side and stay on it. if your going to be all for it then let me know and we can continue as normal if not let me know so i can permanently cut you out.....i dont want to do it DAMMIT CHRIS i dont want to do it, but dont make me make that choice to do so...i done it once and i wont hesitate to do it again...i will not allow myself to be compremissed, and i will NOT allow anyone else to dictate my life for what is not in my best interest. so again either back me up or get the hell out of my way. its not like im going to fucking asia or something, you act like i wont come see you. again i appologize for not comming and for the BLUNTNESS of this entry, but if i dont get it off my chest then it'll get bottled up and someone else will get it. not going to happen. so you think about that and give me your answer later. I hope you come to the right decision. if not then i guess i'll continue to see you around. Im not going to hate you or anything, Im just not going to be around that much for it to get that far...
ok next order of business. anyone else that has a problem with my decision, please feel free to let me know right now so that i may truly understand where i stand with all of you. I mean this, i have truly had my fair share of nagging and whinning and what not...out of all my friends and family there has only been 2 people (one from each) that have had nothing but positive things to say (actually a few more then that, but im going to use these 2 instead) my friend chris thompson, which, mind you, i havent seen for about 4 months until this evening when he dropped by. Not once did he complain or anything like that, me and understand that we have things to do and we understand that we want to do things as well, so basically we see each other when we can. why? because we kow that when we do, we will have the best time. the other person is kenny cole my uncle, even though he has told me that he doesnt really agree to this because he believes that it is evil, he trusted me with the advice that if its starts to look like things are getting pretty fucked up, get outta there. otherwise he has also told me that as long as i believe is something that i want to follow then do it, just be careful. yes he is concerned and he doesnt like it, but yet he knows that im old enough to make my own decissions.... so in close to this, any one that may feel that i have "Alienated" them, well think what you want, If i really wanted nothing to do with all of you, i would have moved alot sooner then i would and not say a word about it, but im not that type of person because i value my friends, hince why its EXTREAMLY stressful on me now because i, looking for those friends to back me up, and yet there some that want to act like children...not calling any names. but as i said before tell me what you think and how you feel and if you feel that you cant be associated with me then please tell me and i'll put a end to it to stop all further annoyances. for those of you that dont care or then your cool, but i'll still keep my distance depending on the sistuation of the reason, and finally if you your all for it and think that as long as it makes me happy and i dont go nuts, then you guys are truly the friends im looking for.
Please i dont want to deassociate myself with people that im close to because of this petty thing, but if it causes a problem or becomes a problem then i shall end it to keep it from becomeing a further pain in everyones side.
well thats about it. i think im done with this little update. so i will call it a night for i have a short day tommorow and im getting a new gamecube with the new zelda games in it, and if i can, i will sale the system to someone that wants it. MAYBE...
but anyways, I shall leave now, those of you who want to respond please do so, and like i said let me know how your feel so that i may know where I or shall i say WE stand.
Stormlynx
"The power of three will smite all evil"
PS
in case you were wondering, Stormlynx is the name that im known by in the wiccan community. also if anyone gets offended then i apologize for it. but i must really know who my friends are and who really arent. AND ON TOP OF THAT. again chris my beef is with you not with your mom, so dont think about draggin her into it. If she has a problem with it then i will discuss it with her as well. But i dont think she will. we shall see as time progress.
Oh well better get started on what i came to do and be done with this.
alright listen up because im only going to say this once. if you don't have a polite and decent opinion about what i say then keep it yourself i have enough to deal with as is.
anyways
as some of you may or may not know i have changed religions. Im now following the Wiccan faith. Basically Im a witch. For once i have found something that makes 30 times more sense then the christian religion. I have been able to find myself and little more.even though i follow this path i still believe in god (and dont tell me its not possible because the wiccan faith is multi-religious) Without a doubt this is something i want to follow. those of you that are already forming the opinion or statment that "its evil" or "its satanism" then let me be the first to tell you to pull your head out of your ass. Mean comment? maybe. Do i care? yes. will you continue to believe what you want. you can, just dont try to change me. If you havent read anything on my religion that's fine and dandy, knock it all you want, just keep it yourself when your around me. I dont make fun your religion so i expect the same in return, if not then oh well i guess that will be one less person i have to deal with. Please take no offense to it. Im not going to cast spells or what not on you to harm you, Im just informing you my change. which i feel is a BIG step for me, as well as a big change. I have never been so sure of this in my life. so please accept it for what it is or dont accept it and just dont knock it around me.
second order of business is aimed directly to chris harris (yeah buddy you gettin called out again) You seem to have a big problem with what i think. You mentioned earlier before you cowardly signed off that i couldn't sit here and tell you about people questioning your judgement. that im starting to act like you did when you were with april. well let me get something straight with you young padawan. Your situation with april is nothing compared to my moving situation. I have confronted my brother about what you told me and he said that all he told you was that mom wanted me out, chris has no beef with me. so if this true then why do you feel that you have to make things more difficult then what they are. You of all people know about this move, hell you were the first person to know about it. april nearly killed you, i didnt....so again tell me how that dictates me acting like you? since you really never explained that... ANYWAYS. If you have a problem with me working so much and being tired, wanting to rest then thats fine and dandy, but sit there and tell me that im Alienating my friends? BAH! as many times as you have had clients and business meeting and other "FUN" filled stuff not once have i complained about hanging out or anything else. let me tell you something my so called friend, I miss you and everyone else alot. But i have fucking priorities to deal with and i dont have time to listen you bitch and moan about how you dont see me anymore. Im not so why should you? you will see me when you see me. No need to force it...IF ANYTHING you should be happy about this change. I have changed, but i have changed to the point where Im so stranger that you see from time to time. like i said i have priorties to take care of. now once i get those taken care of then we can hang out and all that good stuff, but dont ever in your fucking life again tell me that im alienating my friends...because if anything, im not alienating anyone but you....PERIOD!!! besides, if you were that concerned about not seeing me or talking to me, you know my phone number, you know my email address, and you know my screenname, you know how to IM me and talk to me LIKE YOU USED TO! but do you do it? NOPE? why? several reasons, but i'll let you pick one and you can stick with it. Im sorry that i have lay all this out on you, but i already had a shitty day as it is, and im already dealing with a CLOSE FRIEND CONFRENTATION AT THE MOMENT and you just made shit worse for me. so do me a favor and KNOCK IT OFF!!!
Now If you have a problem then i expect you to tell me about it, and be done with it. No making so called intellegent-smartass remarks and then signing off because you don't want to deal with what lies afterwords. trust me, if you do that, its only going to piss me off even more and then you end getting something like this later.
so, in closeing, either talk to me like a GROWN person or leave me the hell alone, i have enough to deal with as it is with beth and the newly found engagement with hugo and i dont feel like cutting people off because it seems that im lossing people in exchange for the peaceful and tranquil happiness that i have come to like. so pick a side and stay on it. if your going to be all for it then let me know and we can continue as normal if not let me know so i can permanently cut you out.....i dont want to do it DAMMIT CHRIS i dont want to do it, but dont make me make that choice to do so...i done it once and i wont hesitate to do it again...i will not allow myself to be compremissed, and i will NOT allow anyone else to dictate my life for what is not in my best interest. so again either back me up or get the hell out of my way. its not like im going to fucking asia or something, you act like i wont come see you. again i appologize for not comming and for the BLUNTNESS of this entry, but if i dont get it off my chest then it'll get bottled up and someone else will get it. not going to happen. so you think about that and give me your answer later. I hope you come to the right decision. if not then i guess i'll continue to see you around. Im not going to hate you or anything, Im just not going to be around that much for it to get that far...
ok next order of business. anyone else that has a problem with my decision, please feel free to let me know right now so that i may truly understand where i stand with all of you. I mean this, i have truly had my fair share of nagging and whinning and what not...out of all my friends and family there has only been 2 people (one from each) that have had nothing but positive things to say (actually a few more then that, but im going to use these 2 instead) my friend chris thompson, which, mind you, i havent seen for about 4 months until this evening when he dropped by. Not once did he complain or anything like that, me and understand that we have things to do and we understand that we want to do things as well, so basically we see each other when we can. why? because we kow that when we do, we will have the best time. the other person is kenny cole my uncle, even though he has told me that he doesnt really agree to this because he believes that it is evil, he trusted me with the advice that if its starts to look like things are getting pretty fucked up, get outta there. otherwise he has also told me that as long as i believe is something that i want to follow then do it, just be careful. yes he is concerned and he doesnt like it, but yet he knows that im old enough to make my own decissions.... so in close to this, any one that may feel that i have "Alienated" them, well think what you want, If i really wanted nothing to do with all of you, i would have moved alot sooner then i would and not say a word about it, but im not that type of person because i value my friends, hince why its EXTREAMLY stressful on me now because i, looking for those friends to back me up, and yet there some that want to act like children...not calling any names. but as i said before tell me what you think and how you feel and if you feel that you cant be associated with me then please tell me and i'll put a end to it to stop all further annoyances. for those of you that dont care or then your cool, but i'll still keep my distance depending on the sistuation of the reason, and finally if you your all for it and think that as long as it makes me happy and i dont go nuts, then you guys are truly the friends im looking for.
Please i dont want to deassociate myself with people that im close to because of this petty thing, but if it causes a problem or becomes a problem then i shall end it to keep it from becomeing a further pain in everyones side.
well thats about it. i think im done with this little update. so i will call it a night for i have a short day tommorow and im getting a new gamecube with the new zelda games in it, and if i can, i will sale the system to someone that wants it. MAYBE...
but anyways, I shall leave now, those of you who want to respond please do so, and like i said let me know how your feel so that i may know where I or shall i say WE stand.
Stormlynx
"The power of three will smite all evil"
PS
in case you were wondering, Stormlynx is the name that im known by in the wiccan community. also if anyone gets offended then i apologize for it. but i must really know who my friends are and who really arent. AND ON TOP OF THAT. again chris my beef is with you not with your mom, so dont think about draggin her into it. If she has a problem with it then i will discuss it with her as well. But i dont think she will. we shall see as time progress.