love's not enough today (hehe patrick i finally realize the brilliance of those lyrics)
so chris isn't getting a job with windmills. but he is moving to colorado to be with his family, friends, get a job (which will be easier because he knows people there), and go back to school. if he stayed here all he'd have is me. which i know is a CLOSE call, i mean i almost weigh up to all those things...heh anyway.
being the only pro on the "stay on the eastcoast" side of the list is not really something i want. it would be very unfair for me to ask such a sacrifice, even if i want to. he's in colorado right now, he went for 3 weeks to visit his family, and while there his parents talked to him and he realized the wisdom in moving back there. even i suggested that he should move before he did. which i would like to kick myself for, but i was being honest and trying to look out for his best interests. i've got to say though, i'm really going to miss him. we're trying not to talk so much right now so maybe it'll be easier to get over eachother but it just kinda sucks and i want to call him like every 3 seconds.
i'm not good at letting go, as all my friends are probably well aware. it's going to be really tough being without him after i put all my feelings into our relationship. and realizing that he's going to meet other girls and get over me just pisses me off so much. i'm so posessive!
being the only pro on the "stay on the eastcoast" side of the list is not really something i want. it would be very unfair for me to ask such a sacrifice, even if i want to. he's in colorado right now, he went for 3 weeks to visit his family, and while there his parents talked to him and he realized the wisdom in moving back there. even i suggested that he should move before he did. which i would like to kick myself for, but i was being honest and trying to look out for his best interests. i've got to say though, i'm really going to miss him. we're trying not to talk so much right now so maybe it'll be easier to get over eachother but it just kinda sucks and i want to call him like every 3 seconds.
i'm not good at letting go, as all my friends are probably well aware. it's going to be really tough being without him after i put all my feelings into our relationship. and realizing that he's going to meet other girls and get over me just pisses me off so much. i'm so posessive!