Acting

[mokina85]

i wonder why anyone is friends with me. honestly it feels like there's no logical reason why people would. i sometimes get so tired of being myself, i dont understand.. i should give it a try really to be someone else. people seem to want me to be something different so starting right now i am not who i've been. according to what i've read and some general ideas i have on what personality really is, it's much more malleable than one would think. we all wear masks. very complicated masks but they're still masks. and when we change the mask we feel like posers. but if we wear the other mask for long enough we become aware of the fact that the first mask isn't the "real" you either. that maybe there isn't a "real" you at all. so there are certain aspects of my personality that i'm going to pretend aren't the way they are until i forget i'm pretending and forget my old self.

I'm a person of few words. I only say what I need to in order to get my point across. I am cogent.
I am an extremely responsible person that is driven, ambitious, and tries her hardest in every situation.
I am serious and not superfluous.
I do not say inappropriate things and I don't need to make jokes to be funny or make myself a clown to feel comfortable.
I think carefully before any action.
I am dependable.
I never leave things to the last minute and am always the most prepared.
I don't need to prove that I'm right and don't care if people's opinions of me are unjustly earned.
I have limitless self-control and am not impulsive.
I am not obsessive and can let go of patterns that I know are unhealthy.
I take care of myself.
I am respected by all who know me.
I am well organized and have my priorities in clear sight.
I don't curse.