Taiyo~♥ I won't forget you
Sorry for posting twice today. But this deserves a post of its own. And it's gonna be public because Taiyo needs more love.
I really saw this coming and, as I've said, I was preparing for it but it still hit me so hard. Right now I feel sad, depressed, angry and totally empty. I really waited for him to get more chances. Things were just getting better for him too but then this whole HSJ fiasco happened. Honestly. My Christmas won't be so good this year.
I wish I could just wish him luck for the future but I can't. And I feel bad for that reason. I want to see more of him! Even one picture would be good enough. I really regret the day I became a fan of JE. And someone should have really warned me not to become so emotionally attached to a celebrity who doesn't have even a clue that I'm here and I'm his fan.
I will still continue to support him. I'll make a big birthday post for him and when I finally can watch Ya3 show again, I'll make nice little fangirly rants about them. But now I can't stand any of those. Probably not for a long time.
I don't know the reason for his leaving. Was it because he wanted to focus on his studies? Or because he simply didn't want to be in entertainment business anymore? Or did JE freakin' threw him out? What ever the reason is, I think I understand him. I wouldn't want to be in that kind of business world. And it's better to concentrate on studying than being there. Taiyo is good at school after all, isn't he?
But... I don't want him to go! D: I know I'm so selfish now but I don't want to. And I really wonder how long it's gonna take for me to fully accept this and start listening to Ya-Ya-yah again. I don't really know. Everyday life will be hard for me because I have Taiyo's pictures on my schedule and I need to look at it everyday because I have so poor memory that I can't remember anything without it. ;_;
My head is empty and full of thoughts at the same time. I can't still believe that he isn't there anymore. Just on August we got to enjoy his solo and it was honestly one of the best things that happened to me in this year. Some people say that those shokuras sucked but to me they were the best shokuras I've watched. For real. I enjoyed the attention Taiyo got. He was simply awesome there!
じゃあ...ありがとう、太陽くん。
You really made my life. Simply seeing your smile would make my day and make me feel happier. I'm worried how I can feel happy now because I'm a gloomy person, in general. You could really put a smile on my face anytime.
I must also thank you for giving me courage to create this blog and for me to getting to know the awesome people on my f-list.
.
.
.
I'm sad that I can't fulfill my dream and see you in person one day.
He was the reason I'm a fan of JE so don't expect me to watch anything JE-related. Bye bye this sucky fandom! I won't miss it, but I'll miss Taiyo for sure.
I'll edit this post when my mind clears up a bit. ;_; And no cuts because I can't stand the thought of those right now.
I really saw this coming and, as I've said, I was preparing for it but it still hit me so hard. Right now I feel sad, depressed, angry and totally empty. I really waited for him to get more chances. Things were just getting better for him too but then this whole HSJ fiasco happened. Honestly. My Christmas won't be so good this year.
I wish I could just wish him luck for the future but I can't. And I feel bad for that reason. I want to see more of him! Even one picture would be good enough. I really regret the day I became a fan of JE. And someone should have really warned me not to become so emotionally attached to a celebrity who doesn't have even a clue that I'm here and I'm his fan.
I will still continue to support him. I'll make a big birthday post for him and when I finally can watch Ya3 show again, I'll make nice little fangirly rants about them. But now I can't stand any of those. Probably not for a long time.
I don't know the reason for his leaving. Was it because he wanted to focus on his studies? Or because he simply didn't want to be in entertainment business anymore? Or did JE freakin' threw him out? What ever the reason is, I think I understand him. I wouldn't want to be in that kind of business world. And it's better to concentrate on studying than being there. Taiyo is good at school after all, isn't he?
But... I don't want him to go! D: I know I'm so selfish now but I don't want to. And I really wonder how long it's gonna take for me to fully accept this and start listening to Ya-Ya-yah again. I don't really know. Everyday life will be hard for me because I have Taiyo's pictures on my schedule and I need to look at it everyday because I have so poor memory that I can't remember anything without it. ;_;
My head is empty and full of thoughts at the same time. I can't still believe that he isn't there anymore. Just on August we got to enjoy his solo and it was honestly one of the best things that happened to me in this year. Some people say that those shokuras sucked but to me they were the best shokuras I've watched. For real. I enjoyed the attention Taiyo got. He was simply awesome there!
じゃあ...ありがとう、太陽くん。
You really made my life. Simply seeing your smile would make my day and make me feel happier. I'm worried how I can feel happy now because I'm a gloomy person, in general. You could really put a smile on my face anytime.
I must also thank you for giving me courage to create this blog and for me to getting to know the awesome people on my f-list.
.
.
.
I'm sad that I can't fulfill my dream and see you in person one day.
He was the reason I'm a fan of JE so don't expect me to watch anything JE-related. Bye bye this sucky fandom! I won't miss it, but I'll miss Taiyo for sure.
I'll edit this post when my mind clears up a bit. ;_; And no cuts because I can't stand the thought of those right now.