astro traveling
so its been about a year since ive used this journal. ive been back in chicago for about 5 months and im pretty damn happy about it. i have the best job ive ever had working at a coffee shop named dollop cafe. my girlfriend for 5 years dumped me about two and a half months ago.. it doesnt really suck, but what DOES suck is seeing her all the time.. im not a praying man, but if i were to do it again, it would be to keep her away from me and to find a bag of money. we have all the same friends and are in the same social group. eventually i wont care at all, but for now its definately a drag.. it should be best for me though.. it actually really makes me think about past relationships ive had before this one. and how much ive changed as a person over time. for old friends of mine that i havent seen in a few years, i might seem like a completely different person. as time goes on, im learning a lot about life and myself.
here are a few random B96 shout outs to some people ive been thinking about while making this post..
mr. keith rich.. how are ya buddy? yeah? maybe you came to mind first because everytime i check my friends, you are the only one that still posts regularly.. or maybe its because you were pretty super awesome when i knew you and we had a lot in common. especially with the deaf parents and being into making music. when i lived in iowa, i really enjoyed hanging out with you, mason, adam, brian, tim, and of course, the sweet dude who owned the music store who let me play his wurlitzer piano...that guy said it was the only time he ever saw me smile was when he let me play on that thing. but he's a filthy liar. i dont ever smile, and ive never even cried before. anyhow, i hope all is well with you sir. and next time you come to chicago PLEASE get a hold of me somehow. you will always have a place to stay if you ever come out my way.
doug coslet.. to be blunt. i dont understand you.. ive always liked you, and at one point we were really great friends, but it seems to me that you push people away from you. especially kids that have always been great friends to you. and im not talking about me. obviously, we went our separate ways a while ago and im sure we have a mutual respect for eachother. i remember skating in your barn and recording some punk music for mr. napier's class. "you dont even!... really know me!.. you cant even!.. prove it to me!".. what a shitty song it was. but ill remember that until the day i forget about it. if you ever read this, lets be friends again.. on some level..
chris nixon... why arent we still really close friends?? what the fuck? everytime we hang out it feels like weve been hanging out consistently throughout the whole time we havent been..seriously though.. aug 25th. pelican.. clouds..
nick pagels. im just as confused as to why im thinking about you right now as you probably are.. we obvoiously had a lot of fun together in the past but things went sour over things that had nothing to do with the 2 of us personally. oh well, maybe ill just get a crossbow again and threaten to shoot about it.
mike brown.. hey dude. hi. hello. i remember you. we had a pretty cool but shortlived close friendship.. for a while i hated you after i fucked up some things and couldnt understand why you, my good friend at the time, would let me be ousted from our little ska music project. but over time ive come to realise that you're a pretty passive cool guy. and you wanted things to go over smoothly in the best way possible with the least amount of conflict.. so you went with the unanimous vote.theres no problem with that.we made a lot of good, fun music together.after i was gone, you guys went on to make some pretty kick ass stuff.. but it just wasnt the same. . goodluck with your beard.
niki.. yep. you.. i hope your life is kicking ass all over the place. im sure it is. this isnt a post about being sorry, because how could i ever undo all the pain i caused you.. im sure you are wayyyy over it by now. and thats good.. me too. but every once in a while i think about you. just about how i was a total idiot and threw away our friendship. you were always awesome and good to me but i was just a little pretentious 17 year old who didnt know any better. we were almost like family at one point wouldnt you agree? with all the sleep overs and ditching school in your malibu, blasting black eye. when i think about it, it was insane how close we were at one point in our lives.. maybe dating was the total wrong idea from the get go. we were really good friends for a while.. and realtionships, when they end, for the most part, make it almost impossible for friendship afterward. especially when one person was a total and complete fuck. oh well, thats life for you. take care and i wish all the best for you.
alright, enough of the eddie and jobo shit..
im gonna be traveling for the next few days.. i know it isnt long but its much needed for me.. ill be in a place where i know no one and have no idea what to do.. and its going to be great.
here are a few random B96 shout outs to some people ive been thinking about while making this post..
mr. keith rich.. how are ya buddy? yeah? maybe you came to mind first because everytime i check my friends, you are the only one that still posts regularly.. or maybe its because you were pretty super awesome when i knew you and we had a lot in common. especially with the deaf parents and being into making music. when i lived in iowa, i really enjoyed hanging out with you, mason, adam, brian, tim, and of course, the sweet dude who owned the music store who let me play his wurlitzer piano...that guy said it was the only time he ever saw me smile was when he let me play on that thing. but he's a filthy liar. i dont ever smile, and ive never even cried before. anyhow, i hope all is well with you sir. and next time you come to chicago PLEASE get a hold of me somehow. you will always have a place to stay if you ever come out my way.
doug coslet.. to be blunt. i dont understand you.. ive always liked you, and at one point we were really great friends, but it seems to me that you push people away from you. especially kids that have always been great friends to you. and im not talking about me. obviously, we went our separate ways a while ago and im sure we have a mutual respect for eachother. i remember skating in your barn and recording some punk music for mr. napier's class. "you dont even!... really know me!.. you cant even!.. prove it to me!".. what a shitty song it was. but ill remember that until the day i forget about it. if you ever read this, lets be friends again.. on some level..
chris nixon... why arent we still really close friends?? what the fuck? everytime we hang out it feels like weve been hanging out consistently throughout the whole time we havent been..seriously though.. aug 25th. pelican.. clouds..
nick pagels. im just as confused as to why im thinking about you right now as you probably are.. we obvoiously had a lot of fun together in the past but things went sour over things that had nothing to do with the 2 of us personally. oh well, maybe ill just get a crossbow again and threaten to shoot about it.
mike brown.. hey dude. hi. hello. i remember you. we had a pretty cool but shortlived close friendship.. for a while i hated you after i fucked up some things and couldnt understand why you, my good friend at the time, would let me be ousted from our little ska music project. but over time ive come to realise that you're a pretty passive cool guy. and you wanted things to go over smoothly in the best way possible with the least amount of conflict.. so you went with the unanimous vote.theres no problem with that.we made a lot of good, fun music together.after i was gone, you guys went on to make some pretty kick ass stuff.. but it just wasnt the same. . goodluck with your beard.
niki.. yep. you.. i hope your life is kicking ass all over the place. im sure it is. this isnt a post about being sorry, because how could i ever undo all the pain i caused you.. im sure you are wayyyy over it by now. and thats good.. me too. but every once in a while i think about you. just about how i was a total idiot and threw away our friendship. you were always awesome and good to me but i was just a little pretentious 17 year old who didnt know any better. we were almost like family at one point wouldnt you agree? with all the sleep overs and ditching school in your malibu, blasting black eye. when i think about it, it was insane how close we were at one point in our lives.. maybe dating was the total wrong idea from the get go. we were really good friends for a while.. and realtionships, when they end, for the most part, make it almost impossible for friendship afterward. especially when one person was a total and complete fuck. oh well, thats life for you. take care and i wish all the best for you.
alright, enough of the eddie and jobo shit..
im gonna be traveling for the next few days.. i know it isnt long but its much needed for me.. ill be in a place where i know no one and have no idea what to do.. and its going to be great.