32
I woke up earlier than usual (for a weekend, anyway) and as always reached for my cellphone to check what time it was. I had already received a few happy birthday messages from friends who are in different timezones, and there's this friend of mine who always sends me a voice message and makes me cry every year. When my mother came to wish me a happy birthday I was already crying and I kept crying while she hugged me. I thanked her for being the best mom in the world. Lately, whenever I stop to look at my parents, I realize how old they're getting and it makes my heart clench. The first close relative I lost was my grandma, when I was 9 years old, and she was younger than my father is now. I can't help but wondering up to when we'll be able to be together like this, so I want to treasure every moment. Sometimes things are difficult, but thank you for being awesome, mom and dad!
Then I checked FB and saw that yesterday was Kanjani8's first Music Station performance as 6. I was still shaken so I could barely see anything due to tears. I was smiling and crying at the same time. They are so amazing. They shine so much. The harmonies, the smiles, healthy Yasu, that part in which Maru and Kura sing together, MY HEART!! I can't believe I'm saying this, but it's even hard to remember he's not there. They're so strong and give me so much strenght. Thank you for keep going, Kanjani8.
Then I checked all the birthday messages in the Uta no Prince-sama Shining Live game (been looking forward to this ever since I started playing, no shame) and rolled around because they're all so cute. Otoya and Ai brighten my life on a daily basis. On the 28th was the first anniversary since the app launched and we had so many bonuses in the past few days. New cards and outfits and my heart dies a little every time because they're so beautiful it hurts. I even got full combo on two songs I had been struggling with for months! Thank you Utapri and thank you Klab for such an amazing (and free!) game.
Then my phone died and I went downstairs where I had breakfast and ended up talking to my brother for a whole hour (or so it felt like). We haven't been talking that much at all, so it was really nice. We might fight sometimes but I love my brother so much. He's got such a huge heart and his hug is the best thing when I'm tired and need some comfort (although he probably doesn't know that - I should tell him next time, I guess). Thanks for everything, and I'll try to be a good sister.
Then I had lunch and took a good nap, and now I'm waiting for dinner and cake. The world sucks, I work a lot and still have no money left at the end of the month, my eating and sleeping habits are a mess and I'm a zombie most of the times, my period came today and I've got hideous cramps (seriously?!) and I don't even have energy to do anything else... But when things like this happen, I stop and think that life is not that bad, after all.
Here's to my 32nd winter!
Then I checked FB and saw that yesterday was Kanjani8's first Music Station performance as 6. I was still shaken so I could barely see anything due to tears. I was smiling and crying at the same time. They are so amazing. They shine so much. The harmonies, the smiles, healthy Yasu, that part in which Maru and Kura sing together, MY HEART!! I can't believe I'm saying this, but it's even hard to remember he's not there. They're so strong and give me so much strenght. Thank you for keep going, Kanjani8.
Then I checked all the birthday messages in the Uta no Prince-sama Shining Live game (been looking forward to this ever since I started playing, no shame) and rolled around because they're all so cute. Otoya and Ai brighten my life on a daily basis. On the 28th was the first anniversary since the app launched and we had so many bonuses in the past few days. New cards and outfits and my heart dies a little every time because they're so beautiful it hurts. I even got full combo on two songs I had been struggling with for months! Thank you Utapri and thank you Klab for such an amazing (and free!) game.
Then my phone died and I went downstairs where I had breakfast and ended up talking to my brother for a whole hour (or so it felt like). We haven't been talking that much at all, so it was really nice. We might fight sometimes but I love my brother so much. He's got such a huge heart and his hug is the best thing when I'm tired and need some comfort (although he probably doesn't know that - I should tell him next time, I guess). Thanks for everything, and I'll try to be a good sister.
Then I had lunch and took a good nap, and now I'm waiting for dinner and cake. The world sucks, I work a lot and still have no money left at the end of the month, my eating and sleeping habits are a mess and I'm a zombie most of the times, my period came today and I've got hideous cramps (seriously?!) and I don't even have energy to do anything else... But when things like this happen, I stop and think that life is not that bad, after all.
Here's to my 32nd winter!