Nov 06, 2004 00:40
Everything's so routine and boring right now I want to scream. School, work, alternate date/party weekends. Blah. Sometimes I want to resort to the good ole days of drunken debauchery, but... somehow I feel I've other things to do. That and I'm really tired of feeling dehydrated and sleepy and having a sore throat and... I'm just tired.
I'm tired of having crushes on people, I'm sick of the idea of sex, and... I just want to not be lonely being alone. I want to be able to see something really fucking incredible and not feel the urge to share it with someone. I want to put myself on that pedestal and not give a damn about anyone else. I used to say that if I saw me walking down the street I'd hump my leg, and I meant it. The only problem with my lifelong ambition is, it's kinduv hard to hump your own leg. And you can't spoon with yourself. And no matter how breath-taking and earth-shattering the sex with yourself is, it's nice to have someone else expend the energy to get you off, so you can get up and take yourself out to a candlelit dinner for one after you cum...
...so, um, maybe I should just dedicate more time to conning people into playing with my puss...