Just let it run
tags: mojo_viking, angst
Written by: mojo_viking
Length: One-Shot
Paring: JaeMin
Genre: Angst (death)
Disclaimer: I don't own anything or anyone..?
Summary: When JaeJoong is gone Changmin knows there is only one thing he can do.
A/N: Not beta'ed, so I apologize for any spelling/grammar mistakes! (Sorry 'bout the lame title too, I'm just not a creative person ><)
”Changmin?”
There was no response. The three of them leaned against the door, all hoping to hear something that wasn’t the trickling of water. The water had been running too long now; Changmin had said he only wanted to take a bath to calm down…
“Changmin! Open up or we’re coming in. Changmin are you there?” The only sound was the running water. Yunho set the key into the door and unlocked it with a soft ‘click’.
They did not notice the water streaming out onto the wooden floor, ruining it, they didn’t notice the beautiful city lights shining in though the window, nor did they notice that the bathroom had never been as clean as it was, and they didn’t register the delightful smell of jasmine that filled the room.
All they saw was him.
Changmin’s long body lay before them, his clothes and hair completely soaked. His eyes were closed and a content smile rested on his lips. Junsu let a gasp escape his mouth; tears fell from his eyes as he knelt over his friend.
“Changmin? Changmin, don’t do this, Changmin, please” his voice broke as sobs emerged from his throat and found their way out though his mouth. This couldn’t be happening, it just couldn’t. I should have seen this coming, he told himself. I should have known when he didn’t even cry…
Yunho bent down and picked up the empty glass from Changmin’s limp hand. Sleeping pills. In one angry motion he hurled the glass container against the wall, sending orange glass splinters flying through the room. How could they have been so stupid? How could this happen? Of course Changmin couldn’t deal with this, not that any of them really could...
Yoochun found the note. It was placed behind the soap on the sink.
I was going to say I am sorry, but that would be a lie and I know you would prefer me to be honest. I know this won’t be easy for you and in that way I am sorry. I can’t be without him, I just can’t. I promised to love him till death do us part, and beyond that. I didn’t see this coming; I don’t think any of us did really.
Please don’t cry okay? This is for the best, really, and don’t blame yourselves, there is nothing you could have done to prevent this. I will be happy this way, I don’t know what happens when you die but I know I’ll be with him and that is all that matters. It’s funny; I thought it would hurt me to loose him like that, but it didn’t. Maybe it didn’t hurt because I knew I would be with him soon anyway?
I love you all of you and I’m going to miss you, but I’ll see you all again one day. We’ll be real gods. I’m sure of that, ‘cause gods don’t die, he died and I’ll be going to him soon. But you can’t die twice, so when you join us we can be gods forever right? Thank you for everything; you are the best friends I could ever wish for.
-Changmin
He puts the letter back and sits down in the water. He pulls the weeping Junsu away from Changmin’s cold body and holds him close to his chest, silent tears mark his face.
Yunho sits by the door, knees pulled tightly to his chest. It is over now. JaeJoong hasn’t even been gone for 24 hours and Changmin has already left them. There is no more, he thinks to himself. He doesn’t want to go on. He doesn’t ever want to sing or dance, he doesn’t ever want to do anything. As his eyes meet Yoochun’s he knows the other feels exactly the same.
They sit there for a long time, no one saying anything. Junsu’s sobs die and their tears dry. They faintly register little things around them, like the sun rising, sending golden rays through the window and the sound of the running water. None of them turn it off. It is as if the water is safe. Even tough it ruins Yoochun’s new shoes and the wooden floor outside they let it run. They know that if they turn it off everything will be real. The two men that have become so much more than band members and friends to them will really be gone once the water is turned off.
So they let it run.
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-Well. I hope that wasn't horrible?
♥