Father's Day
This was a wierd Father's Day for me.I had to work so I didn't get much time to spend with my dad.But I think what struck me most today was not that I didn't have time to spend with my dad.No.Today I was dealing with a larger issue.I was made aware a good number of months ago that I may in fact be a father myself.Long story short is that there is reason to believe I am not but there is no definitive proof one way or the either.So I'm wondering today if this was my first father's day as a father myself?It has been on my mind for a while now.It's an unresolved issue that I am one day going to have to decide whether it is best to resolve it no matter what or just live with the fact that it will never be resolved and then wonder the rest of my life if I am or not.I really have a hard time talking about it.I don't know why I'm even posting this cause for the most part it's some thing I've kept to myself and haven't really shared with very many people.