Workout!
I've upped my workout. I feel as though I have gotten complacent where I am. I gained some muscle mass and lost a several pounds but now I need to really push my body to it's limits. I am 22 and if I can't figure out my body's response to certain exercises and eating habits, I probably never will....
On another note, I've decided to become celibate. THIS IS A BIG FRICKIN DEAL!!! As a younger person, I used to involve myself in very irresponsible, random acts of intimacy. In short, I was GIRL CRAZY. I mean, what attractive, intelligent, humorous young man isn't. Especially when you've heard the words all your life. Actually, I think my past behavior was typical, seeing that I came out of it smarter, more responsible and STD Free! Don't get me wrong, I protect myself a great percentage of the time. But no one's perfect. Now, I am at a weird stage in my existence. Whereas intimacy is cool, I don't want any part of it. My heart craves it, but my mind (which usually takes precedence) wants absolutely no distractions. Intimacy is seen as one of them. I wish both my mind and heart were on one accord but unfortunately they are not. And therein lies my torment. Thank God for livejournal. I can pour all my frustration, the thoughts of this internal battle, on this white screen. One day, i'll return to society a complete person, but for now - NO INTIMACY FOR ME. I'll just find alternatives, like good books, school work (once school starts up), my real estate goals, and upcoming business ventures. My only fear is that I am going to turn into some Mr. Scrooge type cat who warms his sheets with $100 bills and imported pillows. Guess I'm just at a crossroads - lookin to get used to the dead space where eros used to exist.
On another other note, I may not be able to get my range rover like I planned. My dad thinks a Benz is a cheaper and safer investment. He lives to take away my spoiled dreams.
On another note, I've decided to become celibate. THIS IS A BIG FRICKIN DEAL!!! As a younger person, I used to involve myself in very irresponsible, random acts of intimacy. In short, I was GIRL CRAZY. I mean, what attractive, intelligent, humorous young man isn't. Especially when you've heard the words all your life. Actually, I think my past behavior was typical, seeing that I came out of it smarter, more responsible and STD Free! Don't get me wrong, I protect myself a great percentage of the time. But no one's perfect. Now, I am at a weird stage in my existence. Whereas intimacy is cool, I don't want any part of it. My heart craves it, but my mind (which usually takes precedence) wants absolutely no distractions. Intimacy is seen as one of them. I wish both my mind and heart were on one accord but unfortunately they are not. And therein lies my torment. Thank God for livejournal. I can pour all my frustration, the thoughts of this internal battle, on this white screen. One day, i'll return to society a complete person, but for now - NO INTIMACY FOR ME. I'll just find alternatives, like good books, school work (once school starts up), my real estate goals, and upcoming business ventures. My only fear is that I am going to turn into some Mr. Scrooge type cat who warms his sheets with $100 bills and imported pillows. Guess I'm just at a crossroads - lookin to get used to the dead space where eros used to exist.
On another other note, I may not be able to get my range rover like I planned. My dad thinks a Benz is a cheaper and safer investment. He lives to take away my spoiled dreams.