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I am mental. I have an exam at two... and Im fucked up in the head.
last night charlie had a concert with his guitare ensemble. so I went with catherine to see him play with is friends. it was amazing. really fantastic show. I was super impressed. it was very very cool. the sounds that those kids make with their guitares are unbelievable.
so I was all impressed and stuff with charlie.
catherine and I felt like having a drink afterwards, so we invited charlie to come along. he said he wanted to come with us, but had to stay for a drink with his band, but that he would call me and come meet us. cath and I went to Blue Dog and bought a pitcher. we chilled for about a half hour, and then hyper charlie showed up. we chilled and laughed and finished the beer. it was about one in the morning by that time. catherine took a cab north and charlie and I took a cab south. half way home, I figured that I wouldn't be able to sleep anyways, so why not chill with charlie. he was cool with that. so we went to his place. we chilled, talked,laughed and then went to bed around three. we slept for a touch and then had an intense make out session... and the condom ally convinced me to bring was put to use.
I finally slept with charlie. after MONTHS of expectations... it finally happened.
and to that I say: I shouldn't have done it. it was lame. maybe Im being harsh but it just wasn't that great. and he is probably the most UNromantic guy ever. ak. Im retarded. and I didnt even finish. what a waste of time. ha. so silly.
this business is making me think more and more that I should start dating girls.
so that is my post about wanting satisfaction and not getting it.
now I've got a exam in two hours... and the sex didn't even give me the adrenaline hypertone that I thought it would. which is really too bad - it totally worked in june with jihaari in new york for my art history exam. oh well, I guess I'll have to rely on my own brains er something. what a rip off.
oh, and my dad shows up tonight. he is staying with me until thursday morning. I have two more days of work left. oh god let the time fly and please find me some to satisfy me. gak.
last night charlie had a concert with his guitare ensemble. so I went with catherine to see him play with is friends. it was amazing. really fantastic show. I was super impressed. it was very very cool. the sounds that those kids make with their guitares are unbelievable.
so I was all impressed and stuff with charlie.
catherine and I felt like having a drink afterwards, so we invited charlie to come along. he said he wanted to come with us, but had to stay for a drink with his band, but that he would call me and come meet us. cath and I went to Blue Dog and bought a pitcher. we chilled for about a half hour, and then hyper charlie showed up. we chilled and laughed and finished the beer. it was about one in the morning by that time. catherine took a cab north and charlie and I took a cab south. half way home, I figured that I wouldn't be able to sleep anyways, so why not chill with charlie. he was cool with that. so we went to his place. we chilled, talked,laughed and then went to bed around three. we slept for a touch and then had an intense make out session... and the condom ally convinced me to bring was put to use.
I finally slept with charlie. after MONTHS of expectations... it finally happened.
and to that I say: I shouldn't have done it. it was lame. maybe Im being harsh but it just wasn't that great. and he is probably the most UNromantic guy ever. ak. Im retarded. and I didnt even finish. what a waste of time. ha. so silly.
this business is making me think more and more that I should start dating girls.
so that is my post about wanting satisfaction and not getting it.
now I've got a exam in two hours... and the sex didn't even give me the adrenaline hypertone that I thought it would. which is really too bad - it totally worked in june with jihaari in new york for my art history exam. oh well, I guess I'll have to rely on my own brains er something. what a rip off.
oh, and my dad shows up tonight. he is staying with me until thursday morning. I have two more days of work left. oh god let the time fly and please find me some to satisfy me. gak.