like sand through the hour glass...
these are the waves of our lives.
up and down the levels of tolerance and enjoyment go, where they stop, no body knows.
this has been quite the rollar coaster ride for me in the past few days, er, weeks. I am sooo greatful that tonight was productive and possitive. I finished my fibres project. I worked on my painting for thursday. I planned my classes for thursday. I took out the garbage. I ate some food. I re-vamped my resumé. I made some phone calls. I breathed in and out. and I felt good about things.
it has been a while since I felt good about things. *sigh* it felt good to be alive.
this is the first day in a while where I haven't cried.
ONE TEAR FREE DAY. that is progress. ha ha ha. ouuuuu... it's been difficult. there were moments of panic, but no tears. that is an improvement.
there is still a ton of work to be done, but not as much as before. and I will be in bed at midnight. and I will be sleeping for at least seven hours =-) yeah.
tomorrow I hand in my weaving unit project, work on my presentation for next week, finish my painting, apply to café république, and finalize teaching stuff.
PLEASE, LET TOMORROW BE A GOOD DAY TOO!!
*inhale*
*exhale*
*inhale*
*exhale*... repeat repeat repeat repeat
up and down the levels of tolerance and enjoyment go, where they stop, no body knows.
this has been quite the rollar coaster ride for me in the past few days, er, weeks. I am sooo greatful that tonight was productive and possitive. I finished my fibres project. I worked on my painting for thursday. I planned my classes for thursday. I took out the garbage. I ate some food. I re-vamped my resumé. I made some phone calls. I breathed in and out. and I felt good about things.
it has been a while since I felt good about things. *sigh* it felt good to be alive.
this is the first day in a while where I haven't cried.
ONE TEAR FREE DAY. that is progress. ha ha ha. ouuuuu... it's been difficult. there were moments of panic, but no tears. that is an improvement.
there is still a ton of work to be done, but not as much as before. and I will be in bed at midnight. and I will be sleeping for at least seven hours =-) yeah.
tomorrow I hand in my weaving unit project, work on my presentation for next week, finish my painting, apply to café république, and finalize teaching stuff.
PLEASE, LET TOMORROW BE A GOOD DAY TOO!!
*inhale*
*exhale*
*inhale*
*exhale*... repeat repeat repeat repeat