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today officially sucks.
I lost my serving job. I got fired because of a 'difference in personnality'. for some reason, the owners don't like me. and for this I have been discriminated against. I was shown the door because I am me - not for any reason actually pertaining to the job or duties. I was wrongfully fired. what a load of horse shit. fuckin smelly horse shit.
and the boy I like best called after a three week drought and let me in on his life. in which there is another girl. whom he will be looking for an apt with soon (him, his best friend, and the new girl). but he says he still likes me best too. if I were there, it would be me - BUT Im not there, and it isn't me. and that is just the way it is. and the only way I can be there is if there are better opportunities there for what I want to do. it is unfair to uproot someone without it being an all around good life decision.
he doesn't want to end it ('it' being our relationship in longdistance status er something), he would like us to keep talking - and I agree. and we're keeping it out of the friendzone.
crap.
I know that it will work out if it is going to work out, and that everything happens for a reason, though I am having trouble believing the first sentence and figuring out the second.
if you were to ask me where up is, it would probably take me a few minutes to respond - and my answer may not even be correct.
this business has fallen on the backdrop of my mother's depression.
I am kinda lost without her right now.
the carpet seems to be being pulled out from under me.
since when did life become so explosive?
I lost my serving job. I got fired because of a 'difference in personnality'. for some reason, the owners don't like me. and for this I have been discriminated against. I was shown the door because I am me - not for any reason actually pertaining to the job or duties. I was wrongfully fired. what a load of horse shit. fuckin smelly horse shit.
and the boy I like best called after a three week drought and let me in on his life. in which there is another girl. whom he will be looking for an apt with soon (him, his best friend, and the new girl). but he says he still likes me best too. if I were there, it would be me - BUT Im not there, and it isn't me. and that is just the way it is. and the only way I can be there is if there are better opportunities there for what I want to do. it is unfair to uproot someone without it being an all around good life decision.
he doesn't want to end it ('it' being our relationship in longdistance status er something), he would like us to keep talking - and I agree. and we're keeping it out of the friendzone.
crap.
I know that it will work out if it is going to work out, and that everything happens for a reason, though I am having trouble believing the first sentence and figuring out the second.
if you were to ask me where up is, it would probably take me a few minutes to respond - and my answer may not even be correct.
this business has fallen on the backdrop of my mother's depression.
I am kinda lost without her right now.
the carpet seems to be being pulled out from under me.
since when did life become so explosive?