today

[moije]

I had a wonderful two hour nap on my couch this afternoon. I layed down and conked out cold. I dreamt furtive, wrestless dreams about work. the kind of dream that you could swear was something that has already happened to you once and you are recalling the anxiety a million times stronger. I was at work, serving tables. my head was elsewhere and I forgot something for a table. this is a regular occurence, not often, but it happens and I applogize and that is the end of the story. though, in my dream, it happened again and again and again. every table was invisble to me. I knew I had tables but they kept disapearing from my brain, one after one and all at once. it was fucked up. when my alarm went off at three thirty, I was all confused. I didn't know if I had class or work. so I went back to sleep for another fortyfive minutes and then had to rush like crazy person to get out of the door on time. I got to work no problem and had a chill night working on the first floor with eric =-) the forgetting thing happened three times tonight. my head was elsewhere.

I've been thinking about work. but not this one. I've been thinking of how great it could be working elsewhere. I may just have that opportunity soon since my job is not secure. I don't like not being liked by the owners. it makes no sense. blah. whatever.

I got my agenda today. so tomorrow I am going to write in all of the important stuff that I need to get on top of. it is sooo time to write lists and start doing things!

though the first thing I need to do, is go to bed. I think I have a cold taking over, which is sooo uncool.