meep!
those hours last night while others were sleeping, I was constructing a story in my head about traveling across the provincial borders to a wedding. I was in a train that was full of people. the crowd was mostly older ladies, going for sunday ride. I was in my fur coat. I was one of them. I thought about descending the train and driving but I couldnt'. I thought about my shifts at work; I tried to write my availibility on the walls of the train but continually messed up my letters. I changed seats when the old lady beside me became increasingly annoying. I thought "I dont have to deal with her retardedness, who let her out of the home". sitting beside a middle age lady with a short hair cut and a matron-like outfit, I thought about how I would get back from the wedding. I cringed at the thought of driving back with my family. No way was I going to do that. I dont know why being with my family was such a bad idea, but it was. I thought about riding the train until woodstolk and then driving from there. I dont know what that would have solved but I felt good about it. the old annoying lady I was originally sitting next to offered me her car. that lady left the train without giving me her keys, but she left a note card with flowers on it stuck to the wall in front of my seat that said: GOOD LUCK EMILY IN ALL YOUR ENDEVOURS, yours truly... at woodstolk I hoped off the train. I walked into the grass beside the tracks and looked around. the sun was bright. there were many people milling around the train. I inhaled and ran back to the train. I didnt want it to leave without me.
sooo weird. I make no sense sometimes. ha ha ha.
I woke up at least four times last night, it was really weird. my body is stressed. the moving business, work, and stuff I think was agrivated by the ten kilometers that I ran yesterday. it is like that run shot my body up with caffein or something. oh wait, I did drink quite a bit of coffee yesterday... that might be it. oops. oh well. sooo much slow motion in my life.
Im hoping that all goes well. that all goes smoothly. that I dont' cry. ha. I'll probably cry. but that is ok. yikes. Im one stressed out little girl!! meep.
sooo weird. I make no sense sometimes. ha ha ha.
I woke up at least four times last night, it was really weird. my body is stressed. the moving business, work, and stuff I think was agrivated by the ten kilometers that I ran yesterday. it is like that run shot my body up with caffein or something. oh wait, I did drink quite a bit of coffee yesterday... that might be it. oops. oh well. sooo much slow motion in my life.
Im hoping that all goes well. that all goes smoothly. that I dont' cry. ha. I'll probably cry. but that is ok. yikes. Im one stressed out little girl!! meep.