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UGGGG THIS FUCKING SUCKS.
Sooo... this is just so confusing and so fucked up. Lou loves me, and misses me, and I love him, and miss him SO MUCH, but he's beating himself up over this, and doesn't think we'll ever be able to be happy again. But how do you know if you don't try? Isn't that true? And I don't mean NOW, I mean someday. I want so badly for him to come running back to me, and he just won't... He's so unhappy, and so miserable, and I hate it. And I hate how miserable and unhappy I am.
I wish I could make him understand how much he meant to me...
Sooo... this is just so confusing and so fucked up. Lou loves me, and misses me, and I love him, and miss him SO MUCH, but he's beating himself up over this, and doesn't think we'll ever be able to be happy again. But how do you know if you don't try? Isn't that true? And I don't mean NOW, I mean someday. I want so badly for him to come running back to me, and he just won't... He's so unhappy, and so miserable, and I hate it. And I hate how miserable and unhappy I am.
I wish I could make him understand how much he meant to me...