My Day...
I was dredding going to work...as I was expecting that I was going to get fired due to the fact that I called in on my first real day...but I didn't..My boss said he knew what happend and really didn't expect me to be there, didn't help that when he asked how I was I broke down in tears so I left...
Off to baughbs...Nice refreshing lunch and Keva..baughb's a gem, she always knows how to make me feel better...
Came home, took CW over to Domino's to see if he could get a job there, they had already hired an MIT and they told him to go monday at 4:30..hopefully we can get him a job soon..I dun think we can survive on one income, we tried for the last few months, it didn't work..
We rented a few movies and I watched Charlies Angeles 2 (again) actually just to look at the Gun's that Demi moore has in it *Drool* and at a cool 2500 dollar that gold plated desert eagle could be mine, yah, I don't think I'll be getting that anytime soon but it was nice to look at.. Watched legally blonde 2 and Head of state and got some good giggles...but it was a nice relaxing day at home...
Cw's brother came over, Dave was over and that's usually all the people who come over to my house so when he knocked Dave stood behind the door with his big ass metal flash light ready to beat him, so we are all still very paranoid, but thanks to Cari the locks have been changed so we all feel a little bit better now.
I don't think anybody has really delt with what exactly happend, it's hard to deal with one's own mortality, or the mortality of the people you love. Especially me, I have the hardest time with death, like ever. I just don't deal with it well. I keep thinking about Jerry, missing him, missing his safety. I'm going to start taking My Krav Maga self defense classes again. I need to feel safe again, for my sanity, so anybody who wants to do the self defense thing with me, let me know. Krav Maga is more Hand to Hand combat, doesn't really deal with weapons. But it's for women, it balances out the weight and height differential between men and women and use it against them, but it's what they teach the FBI women in training, and for anybody who has seen Enough with Jennifer Lopez that is what she is taught.
Anyway, My boss did say I have to go into work tomorrow or I will loose my job, so, yeah, I'm feeling my anxiety come back big tme, baughb was talking about how much she hates her job, and I really just don't want this job at all, but I'll cope until I get another one. I really really hope that comes soon. Ergh, I just dun wanna do it. Blegh
Anyway, CW Is still sedated but is feeling much better I think, not in as much pain. Back to the daily grind and sucking of life..
Off to baughbs...Nice refreshing lunch and Keva..baughb's a gem, she always knows how to make me feel better...
Came home, took CW over to Domino's to see if he could get a job there, they had already hired an MIT and they told him to go monday at 4:30..hopefully we can get him a job soon..I dun think we can survive on one income, we tried for the last few months, it didn't work..
We rented a few movies and I watched Charlies Angeles 2 (again) actually just to look at the Gun's that Demi moore has in it *Drool* and at a cool 2500 dollar that gold plated desert eagle could be mine, yah, I don't think I'll be getting that anytime soon but it was nice to look at.. Watched legally blonde 2 and Head of state and got some good giggles...but it was a nice relaxing day at home...
Cw's brother came over, Dave was over and that's usually all the people who come over to my house so when he knocked Dave stood behind the door with his big ass metal flash light ready to beat him, so we are all still very paranoid, but thanks to Cari the locks have been changed so we all feel a little bit better now.
I don't think anybody has really delt with what exactly happend, it's hard to deal with one's own mortality, or the mortality of the people you love. Especially me, I have the hardest time with death, like ever. I just don't deal with it well. I keep thinking about Jerry, missing him, missing his safety. I'm going to start taking My Krav Maga self defense classes again. I need to feel safe again, for my sanity, so anybody who wants to do the self defense thing with me, let me know. Krav Maga is more Hand to Hand combat, doesn't really deal with weapons. But it's for women, it balances out the weight and height differential between men and women and use it against them, but it's what they teach the FBI women in training, and for anybody who has seen Enough with Jennifer Lopez that is what she is taught.
Anyway, My boss did say I have to go into work tomorrow or I will loose my job, so, yeah, I'm feeling my anxiety come back big tme, baughb was talking about how much she hates her job, and I really just don't want this job at all, but I'll cope until I get another one. I really really hope that comes soon. Ergh, I just dun wanna do it. Blegh
Anyway, CW Is still sedated but is feeling much better I think, not in as much pain. Back to the daily grind and sucking of life..