HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Well, I sure hope it's happy...
Last year didn't start off to well, but I guess ... that's all in the past.
A lot has happened this year- death, bullying, the end of relationships, and the beginning of new.
I've gone from being insanely, madly in love with Jeff to annoyance, and back to friendship, and I have since fallen in love with Lacy. Love is weird.
But good =].
Weird and good.
I was bullied by students in the spring, and this fall I had to fight against asshole teachers to pass my classes.
I took up Japanese again! I didn't realize how much I missed it after only a year. I also didn't realize how much I MISSED. Playing catchup in a foreign language is no bueno =(.
But- Osuka Sensei helped me apply to JET.. so all I can do now is keep my fingers crossed.
I'm also waiting for my audition with MECHA-- it's in two days, but I really hope I get the internship. I've never wanted something this badly before.
I joined the frisbee team!- which is awesomely fun, until everyone ignores me because I'm the worst player on the team. Give me a chance, please???
I miss Magnum so much. Rest in Peace, my sweetie.
I've had almost no control over my emotions this year- both good and bad, so I've been confusing and estranging people left and right.
I've discovered some people... aren't real people (as my friend Nicole would say). And it sucks, but... I want nothing to do with them anymore. Even though our past was good, I can't hande them in the present.
I think I lost one of my best friends. I don't know what I did, but every time I try to get in touch, reconnect-- she stops talking to me.
I think it's time I gave up.
My heart is breaking.
I pray for Gordon.
I love my family and my friends.
I love Lacy.
Here's to you, 2012, leapyear.
Last year didn't start off to well, but I guess ... that's all in the past.
A lot has happened this year- death, bullying, the end of relationships, and the beginning of new.
I've gone from being insanely, madly in love with Jeff to annoyance, and back to friendship, and I have since fallen in love with Lacy. Love is weird.
But good =].
Weird and good.
I was bullied by students in the spring, and this fall I had to fight against asshole teachers to pass my classes.
I took up Japanese again! I didn't realize how much I missed it after only a year. I also didn't realize how much I MISSED. Playing catchup in a foreign language is no bueno =(.
But- Osuka Sensei helped me apply to JET.. so all I can do now is keep my fingers crossed.
I'm also waiting for my audition with MECHA-- it's in two days, but I really hope I get the internship. I've never wanted something this badly before.
I joined the frisbee team!- which is awesomely fun, until everyone ignores me because I'm the worst player on the team. Give me a chance, please???
I miss Magnum so much. Rest in Peace, my sweetie.
I've had almost no control over my emotions this year- both good and bad, so I've been confusing and estranging people left and right.
I've discovered some people... aren't real people (as my friend Nicole would say). And it sucks, but... I want nothing to do with them anymore. Even though our past was good, I can't hande them in the present.
I think I lost one of my best friends. I don't know what I did, but every time I try to get in touch, reconnect-- she stops talking to me.
I think it's time I gave up.
My heart is breaking.
I pray for Gordon.
I love my family and my friends.
I love Lacy.
Here's to you, 2012, leapyear.