what the hell's been going on....yo...
Okay, so if you can't tell by now I like frogs, not a huge obsession in my life...but I think they are cute...so lately Mir and I haven't really had alone time that much, but hopefully we will get some tonight after I take lisa to work...my walls were so bare that I printed out some pics of friends I hold near and dear and some ones of like jimmy buffettisms....because well...Jimmy is the man... Last night about 230 in the morning I got a wild hair up my but, tired and sick, but wanting to go for a ride. We drove down the tree streets near campus, me and 2 friends...and it was so relaxing just driving....came back here, and I'm still pretty sick..but what can you do when you live in this much close proximity...you're bound to get ill....So my old roommate came over last night, going on about things that had me a bit concerned...she left ETSU Spring 04 and went back home to try to get squared away..and here I was thinking she was seeing the 'WHOLE PICTURE' of her situation with this individual she is involved with...instead...I think it's clouded her judgement even more....She's still hanging out with these people..who are no good for her to be around..but if I say something...then I've made her feel alienated..since she lived with me for quite a while...she knows how I am...and all I had to do was to give her a look...and she responded with one that I had seen many times...so I know she knew what I was thinking...or had a good idea anyways...
Classes-
Classes are pretty good right now....have this online one that's gonna be a pain..but anything to get out of here....I'm telling ya...had I just stayed Pre-Med...I'd already be in Med School...but I had to change my mind....several times...and now I'm here...still......which hopefully won't last long...after I start clinicals I should have another year...and maybe a semester...but we'll see...
Situation-
So basically all this schpiel with family and friends got a bit confusing, but I finally got things out the way I wanted to....I am the type of person...if you want to know what I think...be careful...because I'll be pretty damn blunt....but...I am considerate enough to try to be a bit tactful now and again....but most times I TRY---try being the key word there- to keep my opinions to myself pretty much and just voice them here....so getting back to the subject at hand, I was asked about some things related to what all was going on...At first I was surprisingly calm..but then I had finally had enough of the whole situation..being drug into personal business by people..when I was purposely avoiding them..and the situation...was really starting to get to me...so I basically said...everything I felt...and God did it feel good...I had been respectful because it was family...but I finally had had enough..and just let it rip.......let it ALL come out..and for those of you who knew me back when I was with Nick...if you thought I was blunt and bitchy with him...you haven't seen NOTHING yet...because that night I just let it rip...I probably should have said a lot more...but what I did say....was what was simmering at the surface and needed to be taken care of....and the rest of it...I'm not going to lower my standards just for some self serving joy ride I might have gotten with the things I knew...
Today--
tried to call 'Dark' at the hospital..thought about doing it late last night, but was thinking she might be asleep and didn't want to disturb her...so I tried today to find that she's wasn't there...but then I got online and saw she was home...so good to see that.... feeling...so icky with this stinking cold...I just want to stay in bed all day..and I have stuff I have to do....like laundry and grocery shopping....and some light cleaning around the apt...
This weekend-
Spent most of it with Lisa and Snu...we went shopping...like everyday almost...and yesterday was so funny..because by the time we were done shopping...we were all so drained from something but we couldn't figure out why....so we went one last place then to eat...and we had our energy back again... Didn't spend most of it talking to Mir as I had orginally hoped..but hey..we need time away from each other...so it's made me miss him...got the new Saliva cd....and I must say....it's nothing like back into your system....a different sound...and a different feeling...altogether I only liked like 5 songs off the album, where as Back into your system..i loved every damn song..got some new gear...looks pretty good on me...but..i need to take back this ring...I didn't even look at what size it was...and it's WAAAAAAYYYY too big..it falls off of ALL my fingers...like all i have to do is wave my hand..and it comes slipping off...got some new ETSU gear...let me tell you those 25 slippers in the bookstore...ARE NICCCEEEE....so those of your fellow BUCS...go get ya some...oh and they have some nice new long sleeve tees that weren't there last year..they are pretty sweet...but some of them are not made for short people apparently...dont you love that you go into a store and most of the great stuff is up on the wall where you can't reach it...pisses me off....anyways....I'm soooooooo random today...don't know my deal...gonna hop off of here and maybe lay down for a few before I take Lisa to work....and before I have to get up and look half way presentable....anyways...more later.....and btw posting this on my other journal as well..
OHHHHHHHHHH and JUICY---ME LOVE YOU LONG TIME--W00T W00T