//happy crap day.
So;
I did have an excellent evening tonight, going out with gals and having a grand ole time.
BUT.
It's still difficult to see someone(s) from the past that are:
a) With someone else (or something to that affect)
or
b) Not caring in the least bit about you when only mere weeks ago it was all fantastic & whatnot.
And I'm not sure how to feel about it. Like part of me is sad, all 'woe is me ahh I'm so alone no one loves me waaah this sucks fucking lame ass day for losers whats the point I hate life and everyone who is in love and how come no one can love me?' And then the other part is just like whatever unemotional bitch... who is better off alone.
At the same time I don't want to be moppy and lame like all the other single teenagers out there who whine about how much they hate Valentine's Day, because its really awesome that everyone else who is in amazing relationships gets to enjoy it with their love's and gets to be all love-y and wonderful.
I really am so happy for everyone that gets to be blessed with their significant others envolvement in their lives.
Relationships are a lot of work and I commend everyone who sticks through it.
Then again, in my experience, they are just that, work.. maybe they aren't really for everyone else, its just like some sort of sick joke.
But then again.. why the fuck ain't I smelling the roses? Literally?
Haha. I'm so lames sometimes. Oh well. All's well that end's well. I really wouldn't be any happier with someone anyways, I'm so happy already.
I suppose I just appreciate that comfort factor. That's really what it comes down to.
Daaang.
That's all I can say.
Daaaaaaaang.
I did have an excellent evening tonight, going out with gals and having a grand ole time.
BUT.
It's still difficult to see someone(s) from the past that are:
a) With someone else (or something to that affect)
or
b) Not caring in the least bit about you when only mere weeks ago it was all fantastic & whatnot.
And I'm not sure how to feel about it. Like part of me is sad, all 'woe is me ahh I'm so alone no one loves me waaah this sucks fucking lame ass day for losers whats the point I hate life and everyone who is in love and how come no one can love me?' And then the other part is just like whatever unemotional bitch... who is better off alone.
At the same time I don't want to be moppy and lame like all the other single teenagers out there who whine about how much they hate Valentine's Day, because its really awesome that everyone else who is in amazing relationships gets to enjoy it with their love's and gets to be all love-y and wonderful.
I really am so happy for everyone that gets to be blessed with their significant others envolvement in their lives.
Relationships are a lot of work and I commend everyone who sticks through it.
Then again, in my experience, they are just that, work.. maybe they aren't really for everyone else, its just like some sort of sick joke.
But then again.. why the fuck ain't I smelling the roses? Literally?
Haha. I'm so lames sometimes. Oh well. All's well that end's well. I really wouldn't be any happier with someone anyways, I'm so happy already.
I suppose I just appreciate that comfort factor. That's really what it comes down to.
Daaang.
That's all I can say.
Daaaaaaaang.