Bleh
Alright, so here we are, sometime later, and I thought I was making the right decision.
Kim and I split up, I started talking to and hanging out with Holly again after like two and a half years, only to realize that I still have feelings for her, and I want her in my life. So now I am in a predicament.
Kim moved out, and moved on, to be with Kory, cause that's who she's always loved and cared about apparently. But now she wants back in my life. It wasn't that long ago that we split up, and I guess that's part of the reason why I sort of want her back.
But then there's Holly, the way we are together, is nice, the way we interact and talk. Randomly just drive around, the things we do together. She isn't mean to me, not the way that Kim is. She likes me, and appreciates me, and wants to be with me. I don't know why, according to everyone I am just a slimy little worm, a no good worthless pile of shit.
God I just need to get away for a while, go be on the water, get my head back on straight, sick of making nothing for money.
Not looking forward to child support payments for two babies.
But on the other side of the coin, I'd no longer be paying for Zac, and I could be around him and with him more. How I missed my little man... I wish I was a better father to him, I wish I was a better person to her.
I wish they didn't make me choose and I wish that I'd never made the mistake of cheating on Holly. Lord knows we'd still be together today. Even at that, I wish that in Jan, I would have asked her to move back home. I miss her so much, it's not even funny.
I miss the gym, the gym is where I need to be I think, now if only I could figure out how to make that happen.
What am I going to say to Holly? What am I going to say to Kim, I don't want to lose my boy's I don't want to lose Holly, and I don't want to lose Kim.
Fuck why does this have to be so damn hard on me..
Kim and I split up, I started talking to and hanging out with Holly again after like two and a half years, only to realize that I still have feelings for her, and I want her in my life. So now I am in a predicament.
Kim moved out, and moved on, to be with Kory, cause that's who she's always loved and cared about apparently. But now she wants back in my life. It wasn't that long ago that we split up, and I guess that's part of the reason why I sort of want her back.
But then there's Holly, the way we are together, is nice, the way we interact and talk. Randomly just drive around, the things we do together. She isn't mean to me, not the way that Kim is. She likes me, and appreciates me, and wants to be with me. I don't know why, according to everyone I am just a slimy little worm, a no good worthless pile of shit.
God I just need to get away for a while, go be on the water, get my head back on straight, sick of making nothing for money.
Not looking forward to child support payments for two babies.
But on the other side of the coin, I'd no longer be paying for Zac, and I could be around him and with him more. How I missed my little man... I wish I was a better father to him, I wish I was a better person to her.
I wish they didn't make me choose and I wish that I'd never made the mistake of cheating on Holly. Lord knows we'd still be together today. Even at that, I wish that in Jan, I would have asked her to move back home. I miss her so much, it's not even funny.
I miss the gym, the gym is where I need to be I think, now if only I could figure out how to make that happen.
What am I going to say to Holly? What am I going to say to Kim, I don't want to lose my boy's I don't want to lose Holly, and I don't want to lose Kim.
Fuck why does this have to be so damn hard on me..