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it's strange when most of everything in ur life is lookin up... and u feel perfectly happy despite gray skies and school, maybe even overwhelmingly happy, so much that u wanna jump up, high five the air, sing out loud, or just pray and smile... and all for no particular, concrete reason... it's strange but also slightly scary because u realise that by having so much u also have a lot to lose, and the more u have the greater the loss which will eventually come in one way or another. it's like building a card tower... u spend so much time on it until it gets to record-beating hights , but it's so delicate that something as trifling as a breaze or a strong vibration can topple it all down... and the higher the tower the bigger the dissapointment...