Must have seen this coming when you came along.
I wasn't in school for most of today.But I had to go.
I found out that my grandpa had a heart attack.He dragged himself to his neighbors door and alsmot died right there on his doorstep.But his neighbor got him to hospital just in time.4 of his organs are blocked up including his heart.And what is the leading cause of deaths in America kids?...Heart failure.So they're taking him into emergency surgery.They say he's going to be fine but the machines are the only thing holding him up right now.He has to stop smoking and he has a very strict diet.So nobody really knows right now and I find that docters are always wrong when they say it's going to be O.K. and they're fine.Bullshit...
It hasn't really hit me yet.I haven't talked about it.Tried not to think about it.
I do care if he dies but I don't think I would cry.Or atleast it would take awhile before the child in me really kicked in.So does that make me a bad person? Thinking about how much money it would cost just to send us out for his funeral.Is that bad.I dont really know.But nobody can satisfy the comfort I need right now.Well....I could think of one person.But I doubt she even knows its her or in fact would even talk to me about it for that matter.
I don't really have much else to say.Everythings kind of turning to shit again.My mom got in a fight with Rod and she's been acting the same way she used when she had no boyfriend period.I hate this so much.I've seen my mom cry too much in the past and to see that look on her face after so long.My mom deserves to be happy and if some guy.Some fucking asshole guy takes that away from her.My mom and my brother are some of the only people who mean so much to me in this world and if anyone is going to fuck that up or hurt them in any way.Well,you can just ask my dad where he got his fat lip after calling my mom a cunt 2 summers ago.
Anyway,I just wanted to say that shit.I'm not in the best of moods and there's really only one person I miss.But whatever...I'm getting stoned tonight so who fucking cares.It's out of my head and on the internet.Hope everyone has a great weekend.
I found out that my grandpa had a heart attack.He dragged himself to his neighbors door and alsmot died right there on his doorstep.But his neighbor got him to hospital just in time.4 of his organs are blocked up including his heart.And what is the leading cause of deaths in America kids?...Heart failure.So they're taking him into emergency surgery.They say he's going to be fine but the machines are the only thing holding him up right now.He has to stop smoking and he has a very strict diet.So nobody really knows right now and I find that docters are always wrong when they say it's going to be O.K. and they're fine.Bullshit...
It hasn't really hit me yet.I haven't talked about it.Tried not to think about it.
I do care if he dies but I don't think I would cry.Or atleast it would take awhile before the child in me really kicked in.So does that make me a bad person? Thinking about how much money it would cost just to send us out for his funeral.Is that bad.I dont really know.But nobody can satisfy the comfort I need right now.Well....I could think of one person.But I doubt she even knows its her or in fact would even talk to me about it for that matter.
I don't really have much else to say.Everythings kind of turning to shit again.My mom got in a fight with Rod and she's been acting the same way she used when she had no boyfriend period.I hate this so much.I've seen my mom cry too much in the past and to see that look on her face after so long.My mom deserves to be happy and if some guy.Some fucking asshole guy takes that away from her.My mom and my brother are some of the only people who mean so much to me in this world and if anyone is going to fuck that up or hurt them in any way.Well,you can just ask my dad where he got his fat lip after calling my mom a cunt 2 summers ago.
Anyway,I just wanted to say that shit.I'm not in the best of moods and there's really only one person I miss.But whatever...I'm getting stoned tonight so who fucking cares.It's out of my head and on the internet.Hope everyone has a great weekend.