probably gonna be the longest entry in a while............
So let me start off by saying if i start to ramble its probably because i started crying somewhere throughout the entry. Lets start with two weeks ago when Carolyn when out to the club and never came home. Then came lies, lies, and more lies. Until finally through all the lies i demanded on taking a break only to find out she's screwing around with someone else how nice i might ad. To top it all off she has the audacity to come to my house with the girl in the car to pick up her shit and then last night I tried to go out and just have a good time but no she had to keep coming where i could see her and making out with this girl. By the way I am taking solice in the fact that the other girl is ugly. Anyhow so needless to say im a mess. Tommorrow would have been our official year anniversary but whatever as much as I can't help who I love I realize its over there is no hope no chance no anything. Anyone who would stoop that low and not only lie but purposely try to hurt me like that should go jump in a sewer. She is scum and as far as im concerned good riddens. It may take a month or a year to fall out of love with her but at least i see her now for what she truly is. Although this doesn't ease the pain or the sleepless nights, I don't think i've eaten in about a week which can't be healthy but my body just keeps rejecting the food so what am i gonna do. Anyhow, to all my girls out their especially my ast's hit me up i could use a good laugh right now. Miss you all and hope everyone is well.