I hate death
Well how do we begin this owe so not so lovely entry. ( Yes I realize that the last sentence is not grammatically correct.) So yeah I've been studying for my analysis of modern english final for the last 48 hrs and it's all rushing through my brain. So I awake revived and ready to study and ace this final. then I check my mail and find out that my best friends father passed away yesterday. He got pulled into the water with a fishing line and got entrapped under the boat and presuamebley drowned. Now I am waiting to talk to my best friend who is currently dealing with her kids who are flipping out. Don't know if she is leaving for Florida for the funeral or what is going on. I sit here and feel helpless because I'm not there and I don't know what to do. I know I'm suppose to be studying, but I can't concentrate, my mind can not handle retaining information when all I can think about is this. I know it's not my problem or my father, but it was hers and she means the world to me. Amber and I grew up together, we've been through thick and thin, and although were not as close anymore I still consider her my second sister. Her mother practically raised me for god's sake, I grew up in that home with her. I helped her raise Kyle, he's like my own. I can't help the fact that I'm feeling this pain and confusion right now. If no one understands that I can't help but care I don't know what else to say. I kinda want to get an ext on my final so i'll be able to focus when I take it, we'll see what happens though. I know my mom would be pissed but it's not her decision it's mine. Well I'll write more later hopefully happier notes..