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big life steps.
independence.
all the pressure makes pains in my chest.
I sleep and feel alone when I'm not with him.
I hear a man hitting his not-so-significant other above our heads.
he says he needs to buy me mase and a knife.
scared of living on my own
buying my own cereal and tooth paste.
afraid of being without him, but I don't show it.
wonder if he thinks about me as much as i do about him.
did all of my friends forget about me?
should I go to bed earlier?
why can't I just leave to go see my baby?
am I going to be able to pay rent on time?
did I get the job at Savers?
will I get sad when he leaves town for a week?
will my mom go through with her pregnancy?
will I have enough money to buy things at a show this weekend?
will I ever have money again?
what happened to the $100 I had on saturday?
my sister irritates me.
I'm controlled and scrutinized.
will my dad loan me the money?
is my mom going to wake up on time to drive me to school tomorrow?
i want to call him, so I will.
i miss him already.
independence.
all the pressure makes pains in my chest.
I sleep and feel alone when I'm not with him.
I hear a man hitting his not-so-significant other above our heads.
he says he needs to buy me mase and a knife.
scared of living on my own
buying my own cereal and tooth paste.
afraid of being without him, but I don't show it.
wonder if he thinks about me as much as i do about him.
did all of my friends forget about me?
should I go to bed earlier?
why can't I just leave to go see my baby?
am I going to be able to pay rent on time?
did I get the job at Savers?
will I get sad when he leaves town for a week?
will my mom go through with her pregnancy?
will I have enough money to buy things at a show this weekend?
will I ever have money again?
what happened to the $100 I had on saturday?
my sister irritates me.
I'm controlled and scrutinized.
will my dad loan me the money?
is my mom going to wake up on time to drive me to school tomorrow?
i want to call him, so I will.
i miss him already.