I'm a butterfly!
All those years in darkness when I considered myself to be something less, uglier, less capable or somehow worse than I was, I was actually just hibernating like a catepillar that has built a chrysalis around itself and finally breaks out as a beautiful butterfly. Well, my time hibernating has been done, I have liquified most of my old negative beliefs and thoughts and transformed the catepillar into a butterfly now ready to spread its wings to test if they'll carry. I'm not afraid about falling down, for how would I ever dare to take the first step if I was to be afraid of it? Wouldn't I be inclined to fall if the fear of it was all I ever consentrated my energies to?
At sixteen I left my home to move across the country to study in a special college, far away from home. I wasn't afraid but excited. I learned a few lessons, graduated from college, met people who became my friends.
At eighteen I left my home country to move across the sea to work in a foreign country, far away from home, I wasn't afraid but excited. I learned more lessons, gained experience in different jobs and situations, met more people, some of them became my friends, some of them I understood were afraid, so afraid that they only wanted to use others to console their own fears.
I have travelled for a few years now, I have encountered some troublesome situations as well as happy times, I have cried on the phone to many friends and family when I felt lost and lonely, but I've never given up for fear, no matter how many times my mom warned me about anything or painted pictures of the devil on the wall trying to make me return home.
I have lost some, but gained much more than I could ever have wished for: I have learned to cook delicious dishes of many different cuisines, I have lived with people of different ages, cultures, countries and personalities learning tolerance and understanding, I have met a lot of people and made many great friends all over the world, and on top of it all I met a man and fell in love. My journey isn't finished yet, it's just about to start, this has only been the taxi drive to the airport!
So give up your fears and take the first step to do whatever it is that you've always wanted. Go out and smile at strangers, you'll find that some of them will smile back at you and who knows you might find some great people you wouldn't have met staying home watching telly. Book the first flight out of the country to start again, leave all your fears and prejudices behind and smile at the world and it will smile back at you!
At sixteen I left my home to move across the country to study in a special college, far away from home. I wasn't afraid but excited. I learned a few lessons, graduated from college, met people who became my friends.
At eighteen I left my home country to move across the sea to work in a foreign country, far away from home, I wasn't afraid but excited. I learned more lessons, gained experience in different jobs and situations, met more people, some of them became my friends, some of them I understood were afraid, so afraid that they only wanted to use others to console their own fears.
I have travelled for a few years now, I have encountered some troublesome situations as well as happy times, I have cried on the phone to many friends and family when I felt lost and lonely, but I've never given up for fear, no matter how many times my mom warned me about anything or painted pictures of the devil on the wall trying to make me return home.
I have lost some, but gained much more than I could ever have wished for: I have learned to cook delicious dishes of many different cuisines, I have lived with people of different ages, cultures, countries and personalities learning tolerance and understanding, I have met a lot of people and made many great friends all over the world, and on top of it all I met a man and fell in love. My journey isn't finished yet, it's just about to start, this has only been the taxi drive to the airport!
So give up your fears and take the first step to do whatever it is that you've always wanted. Go out and smile at strangers, you'll find that some of them will smile back at you and who knows you might find some great people you wouldn't have met staying home watching telly. Book the first flight out of the country to start again, leave all your fears and prejudices behind and smile at the world and it will smile back at you!