August 26th 2024
Well CPS still has not shown up yet. Steven was absolutely ridiculous this weekend and totally ruined my weekend. Friday night I had a makeup session at Charlie Health but I left after the first two groups. I wasn't feeling it. Friday we drank because I said fuck it and wanted to. Saturday we woke up at 8 am to get groceries from Walmart. I dont really remember what else we did on Saturday but we did end up drinking again. He came home from the store and said a "big deer jumped out in front of him" he repeated it about 10 times and i said i didn't want him driving my car anymore. Sunday yesterday went horrible. I woke up and went to church. Steven came with me. We went to Crosspoint church. Steven acted ridiculous. He complained about the size of the attendants. He complained about the person being too tall in front of him. He complained someone was pushing his seat behind him. I told him I was not going to be with an addict. He was cussing and saying the F word. I told him I was not going to go back with him ever again. We got home and Steven couldn't find his wallet. Oh and on the way home the car stopped working. Steven said someone "stole his wallet". He kept repeating it about 38 times. I told him repeatedly to stop and no one stole his wallet. His grandma called and told him no one stole his wallet. He acted ridiculous all day. Next thing I know i'm in a meeting of AA and his grandma is calling me that "oh he's got a rope he's trying to kill himself" i just rolled my eyes. I went in the basement and saw him with electrical cord wrapped around him. I told him hes ridiculous and i dont want to be with him. I took a video and considered calling the police. But decided not to. I know he is doing all of this to be emotionally manipulative. He is a narcissist and they're too selfish to kill themselves. The rest of the day he told me I was possessed by Satan. He said that about 10 times. I ignored him and didn't care what he was saying. He's so fucking stupid. I hate him being in my house. I sent the video of him laying there with rope around his neck sitting on the floor to his mom and said he needs to be committed. I can't deal with him anymore. His mom didn't text me back but she texted him. IDK what she said to him but he knew i sent the video which was kinda comical. This morning he woke up and didn't apply for work anywhere but he went to go help his "friend move". He was finally gone all day which made me happy i didn't have to be around him. He keeps asking me what's wrong and why i don't want to have sex with him. I told him I don't want to and that's it. He is such a child. I'm still waiting for DFACS to show up any day but at least i got the house cleaned.