make it stop

[modest_goddess]

i hate being at home because all i can concentrate on is the past, the potential of the future. i have nothing here anymore. i mean, i have my friends whom i love dearly but a life? not so much. and it gets worse and worse every day, being in this town and knowing i fucked things up and that i couldn't have stopped it. why can't i let things lie. its dead anyways. someone just make it stop.

god i just need to get drunk. bad way to release but easiest for me. anyone in?