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So in honor of towel day I'm going to complain everywhere. feel free to scroll past, there will be misspellings everywhere and this is a Bitter Post(tm)
So as anyone who follows me on tumblr/talks with me about personal shit knows, I'm bi. Well, pan? idk different topic for a different day.
And there's this girl. Who is basically the reason why I finally pulled my head out of my ass and said, "Wait a minute, I really DO like girls that way! What the fuck am I questioning, ladies are RAD." I literally wanted to befriend her because we were taking the same english course and she had Cons that were *orange* and she looked so bored by our prof (and I was too) and she looked nerdy. She was -is- in a word, amazing. We worked together on a peer edit project (which, we agreed later, was for the best, because we actually knew how to peer edit) and we have been bffs ever since.
About four or so months after this meeting I started dating my current boyfriend, who is just wonderful in so many ways. I could go on and on about this boy. We're going on three years now, and he is fantastic about EVERYTHING. And I love him so <3 I talk about him here a lot :D
but. This girl. Is incredibly flirtatious. I mean, in an "I'm only doing it for attention and because it's funny," way. And it gets worse when she's tipsy, which lately has been every time we chill. And about a year or more ago I realized that I didn't want to be her best friend, I wanted...moreness? Idek.
I still don't really know.
And she is so. so. so. naive. She only figured out that I had a massive crush on her a few weeks ago when we were at AB, because I got PISSED and jealous when she was basically making out/grinding with this guy at the dance (and not me lol I am a CHILD). And I told her how sorry I was I didn't say anything, etc etc and she told me how sorry she was she didn't realize, etc etc etc. And now we are friends, according to her.
My boyfriend is being amazing about this. He let me cry on his shoulder after this girl and I talked, and he told me he understood my feelings. He knows I still love him, and that I don't know how I feel for this girl.
But every time I see her it sucks. And she's constantly poking me on facebook, which is a ridiculous thing to get worked up over, yet it manages to get me choked up and angry at her.
AND. UGH. Whenever my boyfriend comes up in conversation, which happens with alarming frequency with her and our mutual friend, they both goes on and on how they haven't even met him yet, and SHE goes off and says he is obviously afraid of a little competition
I almost slapped her for that one. Right now, he doesn't think of you as competition and neither do I because, according to you, we're ~*~*~JUST FRIENDS LOL~*~*~
The last time we talked she told me I was too good for him and to dump him. AGAIN. she told me I was too good for him and to dump him.
So, you 1. haven't met him, 2. haven't spoken with him, and 3. Know how I feel about you. And you're gonna say that. k.
And then she hurriedly told me that it was just her opinion and I could ignore her and so on and couldn't understand why I looked so upset.
SO. All I really want to do is ignore her and pray that we don't have classes on the same days next semester (my last semester, ps I'm getting my Associates soon AWW YEE) because she alternates between being infatuating and infuriating.
Mike is being so good to me. He told me straight up taht he didn't want me to lose this girl as a friend because we were already so close and he knows she'll always have my back (and she does with everything except Mike) and he was so understanding about she and I that it almost made this whole thing so much better that it would cancel out all the bullshit.
And oh my god I just had a thought that we're both transferring to different colleges next year and I might not see her again after next semester. I want to cry.
Teal Deer: I like boys and girls, and one girl is making me lose my head while I am still in love with my boyfriend, and despite the fact that she knows how I feel about her and my boyfriend she feels the need to tell me to break up with my bf. And I still feel strongly enough about the both of them that I am going to cry now.
So as anyone who follows me on tumblr/talks with me about personal shit knows, I'm bi. Well, pan? idk different topic for a different day.
And there's this girl. Who is basically the reason why I finally pulled my head out of my ass and said, "Wait a minute, I really DO like girls that way! What the fuck am I questioning, ladies are RAD." I literally wanted to befriend her because we were taking the same english course and she had Cons that were *orange* and she looked so bored by our prof (and I was too) and she looked nerdy. She was -is- in a word, amazing. We worked together on a peer edit project (which, we agreed later, was for the best, because we actually knew how to peer edit) and we have been bffs ever since.
About four or so months after this meeting I started dating my current boyfriend, who is just wonderful in so many ways. I could go on and on about this boy. We're going on three years now, and he is fantastic about EVERYTHING. And I love him so <3 I talk about him here a lot :D
but. This girl. Is incredibly flirtatious. I mean, in an "I'm only doing it for attention and because it's funny," way. And it gets worse when she's tipsy, which lately has been every time we chill. And about a year or more ago I realized that I didn't want to be her best friend, I wanted...moreness? Idek.
I still don't really know.
And she is so. so. so. naive. She only figured out that I had a massive crush on her a few weeks ago when we were at AB, because I got PISSED and jealous when she was basically making out/grinding with this guy at the dance (and not me lol I am a CHILD). And I told her how sorry I was I didn't say anything, etc etc and she told me how sorry she was she didn't realize, etc etc etc. And now we are friends, according to her.
My boyfriend is being amazing about this. He let me cry on his shoulder after this girl and I talked, and he told me he understood my feelings. He knows I still love him, and that I don't know how I feel for this girl.
But every time I see her it sucks. And she's constantly poking me on facebook, which is a ridiculous thing to get worked up over, yet it manages to get me choked up and angry at her.
AND. UGH. Whenever my boyfriend comes up in conversation, which happens with alarming frequency with her and our mutual friend, they both goes on and on how they haven't even met him yet, and SHE goes off and says he is obviously afraid of a little competition
I almost slapped her for that one. Right now, he doesn't think of you as competition and neither do I because, according to you, we're ~*~*~JUST FRIENDS LOL~*~*~
The last time we talked she told me I was too good for him and to dump him. AGAIN. she told me I was too good for him and to dump him.
So, you 1. haven't met him, 2. haven't spoken with him, and 3. Know how I feel about you. And you're gonna say that. k.
And then she hurriedly told me that it was just her opinion and I could ignore her and so on and couldn't understand why I looked so upset.
SO. All I really want to do is ignore her and pray that we don't have classes on the same days next semester (my last semester, ps I'm getting my Associates soon AWW YEE) because she alternates between being infatuating and infuriating.
Mike is being so good to me. He told me straight up taht he didn't want me to lose this girl as a friend because we were already so close and he knows she'll always have my back (and she does with everything except Mike) and he was so understanding about she and I that it almost made this whole thing so much better that it would cancel out all the bullshit.
And oh my god I just had a thought that we're both transferring to different colleges next year and I might not see her again after next semester. I want to cry.
Teal Deer: I like boys and girls, and one girl is making me lose my head while I am still in love with my boyfriend, and despite the fact that she knows how I feel about her and my boyfriend she feels the need to tell me to break up with my bf. And I still feel strongly enough about the both of them that I am going to cry now.