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Every once in a while someone does soomething so stupid, so callous, so cold, that I can't help but want to throw the nearest sharp object at their skull in an attempt to put them out of my misery.
In other words, the world is lucky that I am kind.
I am sick. Very sick. Sick to the point where sometimes I don't have enough energy to even play video games. Sick to the point of constant and consistent pain. Sick to the point of looking ugly. Sick to the point of not wanting to look in the mirror.
I'm sick.
So this morning a lovely, caring friend of mine decides that he wants a ride to work. He asks if I want to take him, I reply with the fact that I have not left the house for four days because I am sick and I do not want to leave the house until I am better, to which he says this.
"Lazy."
I think he thought I was joking when I told him to get the fuck out the door.
I was really, honestly hurt by that. Here I am, sick to a point that I haven't been to in a very long time, and he calls me lazy for not wanting to go out into the cold and take his happy ass to work when he said not a day ago that he was more than happy to walk.
Fuck. That. Noise.
On a lighter note however, I was very kind and profound this morning to my ex's boyfriend.
Her BF (12/14/2005 11:56:39 AM): Well, the two of them are going to fall flat on their face sooner or later... Im more or less waiting on that time so I can point and laugh.. from about 2 inches away.
I (12/14/2005 11:57:22 AM): You must not be hateful like that however. To wait for someone to be hurt in order to gain joy from their suffering is not a light road to travel.
I (12/14/2005 11:57:31 AM): No matter how tempting it may seem.
Her BF (12/14/2005 11:59:53 AM): I wouldnt say that it would be joy that I would gain. But perhaps some form of justice. It seems like (Insert Ex's Name Here) and I have been struggling forever since i have been here on account of them.. and everytime we end up in a rut because of it, we have to dig ourselves out.. they, however, have thier parents to offer a parachute every time they fall. I dont honestly wish ant ill will to anyone... but ti doesnt mean I cant think about it.
I (12/14/2005 12:00:52 PM): True, but do not fall to it. Remember that when they have successes it will be empty and hollow because they were given everything they have, but when you succeed it will be both sweet and kind.
Her BF (12/14/2005 12:01:37 PM): Mmhm. The same thing I have told (Insert Ex's Name Here). They are not winning, we are. We can see where they are blind.
I (12/14/2005 12:02:46 PM): Just remember the old adage. "Those who walk will be strengthened by the journey in soul and body while those who ride on the backs of others will weaken and crumple before the challenges before them."
Such a nice guy aren't I?
I roxor, you know it, just give it up. Throw your money, your loyalty, and your unwed daughter's before me. You know you love me. Deify me as I deserve, fall before me and worship where I have stood, erect mountainous statues of me that will rival that which you erect for your gods! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!
*laughs and then coughs* Right.
Anyhow, I'm done for now. I feel a little better, if only mentally, but it's better nonetheless. }:-P>
*bows* and to all a good..... *falls face first on the desk and passes out*
-acKNowlIdge riGHT
In other words, the world is lucky that I am kind.
I am sick. Very sick. Sick to the point where sometimes I don't have enough energy to even play video games. Sick to the point of constant and consistent pain. Sick to the point of looking ugly. Sick to the point of not wanting to look in the mirror.
I'm sick.
So this morning a lovely, caring friend of mine decides that he wants a ride to work. He asks if I want to take him, I reply with the fact that I have not left the house for four days because I am sick and I do not want to leave the house until I am better, to which he says this.
"Lazy."
I think he thought I was joking when I told him to get the fuck out the door.
I was really, honestly hurt by that. Here I am, sick to a point that I haven't been to in a very long time, and he calls me lazy for not wanting to go out into the cold and take his happy ass to work when he said not a day ago that he was more than happy to walk.
Fuck. That. Noise.
On a lighter note however, I was very kind and profound this morning to my ex's boyfriend.
Her BF (12/14/2005 11:56:39 AM): Well, the two of them are going to fall flat on their face sooner or later... Im more or less waiting on that time so I can point and laugh.. from about 2 inches away.
I (12/14/2005 11:57:22 AM): You must not be hateful like that however. To wait for someone to be hurt in order to gain joy from their suffering is not a light road to travel.
I (12/14/2005 11:57:31 AM): No matter how tempting it may seem.
Her BF (12/14/2005 11:59:53 AM): I wouldnt say that it would be joy that I would gain. But perhaps some form of justice. It seems like (Insert Ex's Name Here) and I have been struggling forever since i have been here on account of them.. and everytime we end up in a rut because of it, we have to dig ourselves out.. they, however, have thier parents to offer a parachute every time they fall. I dont honestly wish ant ill will to anyone... but ti doesnt mean I cant think about it.
I (12/14/2005 12:00:52 PM): True, but do not fall to it. Remember that when they have successes it will be empty and hollow because they were given everything they have, but when you succeed it will be both sweet and kind.
Her BF (12/14/2005 12:01:37 PM): Mmhm. The same thing I have told (Insert Ex's Name Here). They are not winning, we are. We can see where they are blind.
I (12/14/2005 12:02:46 PM): Just remember the old adage. "Those who walk will be strengthened by the journey in soul and body while those who ride on the backs of others will weaken and crumple before the challenges before them."
Such a nice guy aren't I?
I roxor, you know it, just give it up. Throw your money, your loyalty, and your unwed daughter's before me. You know you love me. Deify me as I deserve, fall before me and worship where I have stood, erect mountainous statues of me that will rival that which you erect for your gods! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!
*laughs and then coughs* Right.
Anyhow, I'm done for now. I feel a little better, if only mentally, but it's better nonetheless. }:-P>
*bows* and to all a good..... *falls face first on the desk and passes out*
-acKNowlIdge riGHT