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Egotistical tension drives my action
empowering every faulty decision I make
drawing me towards a falling, spinning abyss
of permanent disruption of the life I would make
I stand on the precipice of disorder
unable to decide whether to fall forwards
whether to fall into what I have created and remake myself
or to step back and turn away from myself
Save myself, damn them, turn aside all honoured means
break my facade and recreate all that I am in perfection
turn back and be the victor in their eyes
take myself to pieces as I give them all I have
I'm a coward in the end, unable to tell them what I feel
unable to describe what I cannot put myself through
watching my family fall apart from the outside
the outside, always on the outside
I stand broken and unbowed all at once
a testament to my strength and weakness both
I watch them walk away with shaking heads
Turn away into myself, breaking all to fight once again
The battles I face are nothing more than myself
Forcing away my own needs to fill that space with others
Knowing that I should be my only concern, no understanding
That what I do and the way I live destroys the self
They'll never understand the sacrifices that I've made for them
Never any thanks, never any help, never any gifts
I get nothing from what I do for them but pain that wracks the soul
But if I stop I lose all that I am
I've become the kindness that sacrifices
I've become the martyr no one acknowledges
I've become the shield that falls away
And now I don't know how to be anything else
Goddess please let someone show me how to be something else.
Your Kissing Purity Score: 40% Pure
You're not one to kiss and tell...
But word is, you kiss pretty well.
Kissing Purity Test
empowering every faulty decision I make
drawing me towards a falling, spinning abyss
of permanent disruption of the life I would make
I stand on the precipice of disorder
unable to decide whether to fall forwards
whether to fall into what I have created and remake myself
or to step back and turn away from myself
Save myself, damn them, turn aside all honoured means
break my facade and recreate all that I am in perfection
turn back and be the victor in their eyes
take myself to pieces as I give them all I have
I'm a coward in the end, unable to tell them what I feel
unable to describe what I cannot put myself through
watching my family fall apart from the outside
the outside, always on the outside
I stand broken and unbowed all at once
a testament to my strength and weakness both
I watch them walk away with shaking heads
Turn away into myself, breaking all to fight once again
The battles I face are nothing more than myself
Forcing away my own needs to fill that space with others
Knowing that I should be my only concern, no understanding
That what I do and the way I live destroys the self
They'll never understand the sacrifices that I've made for them
Never any thanks, never any help, never any gifts
I get nothing from what I do for them but pain that wracks the soul
But if I stop I lose all that I am
I've become the kindness that sacrifices
I've become the martyr no one acknowledges
I've become the shield that falls away
And now I don't know how to be anything else
Goddess please let someone show me how to be something else.
Your Kissing Purity Score: 40% Pure
You're not one to kiss and tell...
But word is, you kiss pretty well.
Kissing Purity Test